Ugh.
I'm thinking about locking myself in my house and never leaving.
Anxiety fucking sucks.
Jeremy met Elisabeth and Cory and my mom and everyone and that went really well, everyone loves him. I figured they would.
I quit my job but I don't actually leave till the end of July. It's just fucking lame working here cause after you take away the gas it takes to come here and the parking cost and the tolls I'm making almost no money. Getting laid off from the museum really fucked me. I don't know where I'll work now but I have a month to figure it out.
I need some serious help.
I'm fucked up.
The anti anxiety pills I'm on are also anti depressants but they make me depressed and they make me hate life and not give a fuck and I hate them. I'm trying to go to the doctor tomorrow to get them changed. I hate feeling like this, like I'm a drone and I feel like I'm an inconvenience to everyone cause I don't really like to go places cause I'm afraid I'll have an anxiety attack or something. I feel so shitty, I wish I could be normal again. It was so good. I feel bad for Jeremy for having to put up with me.
Whatever. I am happy. The pills make me think I'm not, but I really am. Besides the lack of money, lack of a good mother, lack of normalcy, my life is amazing and I cherish it, especially the people that are in it.
Anxiety fucking sucks.
Jeremy met Elisabeth and Cory and my mom and everyone and that went really well, everyone loves him. I figured they would.
I quit my job but I don't actually leave till the end of July. It's just fucking lame working here cause after you take away the gas it takes to come here and the parking cost and the tolls I'm making almost no money. Getting laid off from the museum really fucked me. I don't know where I'll work now but I have a month to figure it out.
I need some serious help.
I'm fucked up.
The anti anxiety pills I'm on are also anti depressants but they make me depressed and they make me hate life and not give a fuck and I hate them. I'm trying to go to the doctor tomorrow to get them changed. I hate feeling like this, like I'm a drone and I feel like I'm an inconvenience to everyone cause I don't really like to go places cause I'm afraid I'll have an anxiety attack or something. I feel so shitty, I wish I could be normal again. It was so good. I feel bad for Jeremy for having to put up with me.
Whatever. I am happy. The pills make me think I'm not, but I really am. Besides the lack of money, lack of a good mother, lack of normalcy, my life is amazing and I cherish it, especially the people that are in it.