Bad start.
I'm not off to good start with this new year... i've made many mistakes and have given up on myself already, but I know I can do better.
The new semester starts Monday. I have 18 credits, an executive board position in my fraternity, exasperating roommate situations, a wonderful boyfriend, and an overwhelming NON PAYING internship to juggle. I would love to take on a paying job at some place that I really feel comfortable in, such as borders or a cute little eclectic shop in West Chester, just to bring in some extra income, but I know if I do, I might not keep my sanity and my GPA in suitable statures.
I'm watching Bridget Jones's Diary, and she writes, just like I do... but I know i've lost a lot of my humor within my journal entries, and life in general. It's going to get there. I must gain my confidence back. So here goes my Bridget attempt at summing up my progress within the first nine days of the new year.
Total number of days I have been actually really whole heartedly and action oriented working towards achieving my goal of extreme weight loss: 1.
Total number of calories i've eaten over my self-prescribed limitation: 10,000+
Total number of huge mistakes i've made that I really regret: 1
Total number of huge mistakes I refuse to admit to: 1
Total number of out-bursting episodes of self doubt: 3, give or take
Total number of awesome haircuts i've gotten: 1!
Total number of pajama pants I can fit in that are mine: 0 (hooray weight gain)
Total number of days more I think I can handle living life like this: 0
So that's that. Back to school in a few days, back to the normalcy of having a set schedule and specific places to be, other than on the phone with countless clients for my job with no obvious or currently present reward.
"Everyone knows diaries are just full of crap." -Bridget Jones
The new semester starts Monday. I have 18 credits, an executive board position in my fraternity, exasperating roommate situations, a wonderful boyfriend, and an overwhelming NON PAYING internship to juggle. I would love to take on a paying job at some place that I really feel comfortable in, such as borders or a cute little eclectic shop in West Chester, just to bring in some extra income, but I know if I do, I might not keep my sanity and my GPA in suitable statures.
I'm watching Bridget Jones's Diary, and she writes, just like I do... but I know i've lost a lot of my humor within my journal entries, and life in general. It's going to get there. I must gain my confidence back. So here goes my Bridget attempt at summing up my progress within the first nine days of the new year.
Total number of days I have been actually really whole heartedly and action oriented working towards achieving my goal of extreme weight loss: 1.
Total number of calories i've eaten over my self-prescribed limitation: 10,000+
Total number of huge mistakes i've made that I really regret: 1
Total number of huge mistakes I refuse to admit to: 1
Total number of out-bursting episodes of self doubt: 3, give or take
Total number of awesome haircuts i've gotten: 1!
Total number of pajama pants I can fit in that are mine: 0 (hooray weight gain)
Total number of days more I think I can handle living life like this: 0
So that's that. Back to school in a few days, back to the normalcy of having a set schedule and specific places to be, other than on the phone with countless clients for my job with no obvious or currently present reward.
"Everyone knows diaries are just full of crap." -Bridget Jones