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[ooc: Made after a night out drinking with Rin and Eiji and deleted straight afterwords. Typos are intentional... for once >.>]
I think drining heavey is a bad thing...makes you think too much about thing you shouldn't and things that are no good even if they are still there in one way or another. Why is it still there? I don't understand it. I shouldlet go, aren't I happy? Isn't this what I want? Why don'yt I beliebe the thngs I write anymore? It's all SO stupid. Why am trappe in this weird primary school dimension? It's ture that you always want what you cam't ane, sods law and all that. Live whith it,deal with it, mobe foward, pysh on....even if it's al a tatal lie....but is it? relly? I gave up on things making srnse a long time ago. I know I should speak the truth, but what will it really accomplise? Peoplr get onb, move on, I have absolutly no right. I've always been sefish and isecure and I shouldn't ,ake others ay for that. Is it becaise I thouhgt he'a like Keisuke and I xany let it lie? dugs are always addicativw no matter how bad they are ir you, I, of all people, shouldknow that. rwagrsdless, I'm not the one, nor will I ever be that one erson. It's cliche, bit lides iIS a bitch, you deal andmove on. End. I wisj he havd put me out of my misery, still, I can hpe..... Since I fuled to di it, fuking coward.
I think drining heavey is a bad thing...makes you think too much about thing you shouldn't and things that are no good even if they are still there in one way or another. Why is it still there? I don't understand it. I shouldlet go, aren't I happy? Isn't this what I want? Why don'yt I beliebe the thngs I write anymore? It's all SO stupid. Why am trappe in this weird primary school dimension? It's ture that you always want what you cam't ane, sods law and all that. Live whith it,deal with it, mobe foward, pysh on....even if it's al a tatal lie....but is it? relly? I gave up on things making srnse a long time ago. I know I should speak the truth, but what will it really accomplise? Peoplr get onb, move on, I have absolutly no right. I've always been sefish and isecure and I shouldn't ,ake others ay for that. Is it becaise I thouhgt he'a like Keisuke and I xany let it lie? dugs are always addicativw no matter how bad they are ir you, I, of all people, shouldknow that. rwagrsdless, I'm not the one, nor will I ever be that one erson. It's cliche, bit lides iIS a bitch, you deal andmove on. End. I wisj he havd put me out of my misery, still, I can hpe..... Since I fuled to di it, fuking coward.