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Just wanna let you know that I'm gonna be out of the country next week on a job. I'm also not gonna be around much this week due to planning and crap :/ I will try and grab lunch with you at some point though. I miss you.
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I really couldn't of fucked that up much more even if I tried. But still, part of me can't believe that he even considered it for a split second if he thought I wouldn't hate him for it. Why can't he understand how much this is hurting me and I know it's fucking with him too. I never asked for his affections, well, not since junior high. At this rate it'll destroy our friendship and the thought of loosing him over this is just... it makes me so fucking angry! There's just this mess in my head and when I try to think or sort it out it just jumbles more and I end up feeling like I wanna scratch my brains out. I don't think either of us are gonna come back in one piece from this mission, whether it be physically or mentally. Gym + punch bag = good.
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