Its been A while..
Indeed it had been awhile since ive wrote in my livejournal..I have totally negelected it..I have not wrtote in here since before homecomming which had long gone passed about 3 1/2 months..Homecomming 2005.. fuck it. myhopes of a perfect night was just a fucking dumb mistake..Last couple of months have been totally different for me.. REALLY..im veiwing life from a very different prespective..my veiws and everything. i dont see things how i once did.. i feel very different about everything. How i think of people and things in my life is totally different..I trust less. I hardly talk to the f=people who once were my friends.. they were never reallymy friends... They say they have changed for the better.. If you change, you never really were real to begin with..Ive met new people that have comeinto my life and left quickly..Some didnt leave footprints on my heart when others did..:-/ Some of the people i met have left huge impacts on my life and others..ugh.. dont even want to go there..Wish i have never met those people..This year.. i seem to be more flustered,paranoid, nervous,or angry... Ill occasionally come to a cross road where i feel like i am incredibly happy but i truly am not... and i wont even know it..my life is lacking something..or maybe someone?i tend to feel more alone now days..Dont really have anyone that i can quite open up too.