the Extra Special breakfest
God am I ever Restless. I want the snow to melt. I want at lease 1 truly good road dog. I want her to come back. I miss the way it feels to be content.
Ketamine is a great reminder of what it was like to enjoy everything.
last week I met this pharmaceutical dude who let me and a couple of my friends trip out at his pad. he hooked it up with K and Ecstasy. the e didn’t really do much for me. but the ketamine kept looping my mind into thinking I was still in the Queen street squat of Toronto or wasted in Vancouver.
Id close my eyes and see the sun.
"Hey girly, you look tired..why don’t u come and lay down over here"
-Those little annoying side effects-
its the pharmaceutical dude, trying to grab my attention. I look at him as he stands up with his bits and pieces hanging outta his ripped up jeans. "what? your not tired, thirsty or horny?" he says surprisingly "you should taste my juice" I want to laugh hysterically at him and his greasy sex den. I look around at the mirrors, lights&music, his funky texturized bed with the many throw pillows. I imagine how many times a week he does this... looking at hannah feeding into him. I cant help but feel like shes in one of those "be Un-Drunk" Ad Campaigns where the poor defenseless teenage girl wakes up in the bed of some strangers place crying her eyes out. Shes lucky I didn’t just let her get molested.
I lost my job again after only a week. I need another job.
Squeegeeing in -40 plus some weather freezes ppl's windshields. im usually high on morphine, oxy's or drunk outta my face so the cold doesnt bother me. I guess it makes me look more hardcore than I actually am cuz I still get paid.
oh Winterpeg
seems to me that I’ve been abusing my new guy. a junkie of 10 years and I wont even sleep with him. I guess I sorta just refused. I just don’t want to be with anyone, cept for my right hand. He sayz hes a "nice guy" and that he can "wait". does that mean he thinks of me when he jerks off?
Sami sayz to me guys will dump girls if they don’t put out and I somewhat believe it. I guess its probably wrong to test potential boyfriends but I couldn’t believe how he openly flirted with my friends right in front of me after only 3 days of "dating" each other. I left him in the bathroom. I Consciously walked out.
and I say, good day to you -go fuck yerself.
Ketamine is a great reminder of what it was like to enjoy everything.
last week I met this pharmaceutical dude who let me and a couple of my friends trip out at his pad. he hooked it up with K and Ecstasy. the e didn’t really do much for me. but the ketamine kept looping my mind into thinking I was still in the Queen street squat of Toronto or wasted in Vancouver.
Id close my eyes and see the sun.
"Hey girly, you look tired..why don’t u come and lay down over here"
-Those little annoying side effects-
its the pharmaceutical dude, trying to grab my attention. I look at him as he stands up with his bits and pieces hanging outta his ripped up jeans. "what? your not tired, thirsty or horny?" he says surprisingly "you should taste my juice" I want to laugh hysterically at him and his greasy sex den. I look around at the mirrors, lights&music, his funky texturized bed with the many throw pillows. I imagine how many times a week he does this... looking at hannah feeding into him. I cant help but feel like shes in one of those "be Un-Drunk" Ad Campaigns where the poor defenseless teenage girl wakes up in the bed of some strangers place crying her eyes out. Shes lucky I didn’t just let her get molested.
I lost my job again after only a week. I need another job.
Squeegeeing in -40 plus some weather freezes ppl's windshields. im usually high on morphine, oxy's or drunk outta my face so the cold doesnt bother me. I guess it makes me look more hardcore than I actually am cuz I still get paid.
oh Winterpeg
seems to me that I’ve been abusing my new guy. a junkie of 10 years and I wont even sleep with him. I guess I sorta just refused. I just don’t want to be with anyone, cept for my right hand. He sayz hes a "nice guy" and that he can "wait". does that mean he thinks of me when he jerks off?
Sami sayz to me guys will dump girls if they don’t put out and I somewhat believe it. I guess its probably wrong to test potential boyfriends but I couldn’t believe how he openly flirted with my friends right in front of me after only 3 days of "dating" each other. I left him in the bathroom. I Consciously walked out.
and I say, good day to you -go fuck yerself.