Everyday kinda feels like a kick to the teeth
"I LOVE YOU and im NOT hanging up until you tell me the same"
"Holly DONT WORRY about it IM FINE"
"This HURTS so BAD and i DONT KNOW how to make it STOP"
...that and more has contributed to the emotional rut i am currently in...and it sucks...i dont like not being happy...i dont like pretending to be happy when im not...i want to hurry up and die...not that i dont like my life or that "i cant cope" or even that im depressed...but more that fact that im just bored...i need something new...something new that wont hurt...i always look forward for things to be over...but once reality sets in and i realize that it is over then i miss it...
...i love how im going to look back on this tomorrow and be pissed off at myself but i cant bring myself to erase the way i feel
"Holly DONT WORRY about it IM FINE"
"This HURTS so BAD and i DONT KNOW how to make it STOP"
...that and more has contributed to the emotional rut i am currently in...and it sucks...i dont like not being happy...i dont like pretending to be happy when im not...i want to hurry up and die...not that i dont like my life or that "i cant cope" or even that im depressed...but more that fact that im just bored...i need something new...something new that wont hurt...i always look forward for things to be over...but once reality sets in and i realize that it is over then i miss it...
...i love how im going to look back on this tomorrow and be pissed off at myself but i cant bring myself to erase the way i feel