An introvert rants....
Emotions that I've been trying to keep at bay has somewhat been failing these days, especially today. I feel like a full vessel, about to topple and spill. I don't know how much more i'd have to endure, or how long will I be able to hold on, without losing my judgement and sanity.
It's been a month now that I've been living with my mom. Everything seems allright, yet it all doesn't seem right either. She's trying to treat me nice, but I think it's obvious to her that I'm spaced out and uncomfortable all the time. It's been more than seven years I've not been living with my mom, ever since the divorce. I know there is nothing wrong with her. In fact, I think there could never be a nicer person. But I was looking for a different kind of love. Nothing close to what mother's give. I was hoping all the while when I was living on my own, that I could have found someone right. It never did happen..........if that would ever.
I miss living on my own. I miss my space. I miss having friends over at my place. I totally miss the quietness. I miss the walks I'd have back to my place from work. I miss those contemplative hours alone. I despise changes.
It's been a month now that I've been living with my mom. Everything seems allright, yet it all doesn't seem right either. She's trying to treat me nice, but I think it's obvious to her that I'm spaced out and uncomfortable all the time. It's been more than seven years I've not been living with my mom, ever since the divorce. I know there is nothing wrong with her. In fact, I think there could never be a nicer person. But I was looking for a different kind of love. Nothing close to what mother's give. I was hoping all the while when I was living on my own, that I could have found someone right. It never did happen..........if that would ever.
I miss living on my own. I miss my space. I miss having friends over at my place. I totally miss the quietness. I miss the walks I'd have back to my place from work. I miss those contemplative hours alone. I despise changes.