Sep 28, 2004 23:12
If there is no afterlife, then your time on earth is all you have. So, you better make it count. But what if it doesn't? What if everything you wanted to say never gets said? What does life mean if death is final? Once someone dies, all you can do is miss them, you will never be near them again.
Once you are dead, you feel nothing, you see nothing, you experience nothing. You leave your soul behind in everyone you knew. The more you loved someone, the more of your soul you leave in them. But what if your soul was tortured? Then everyone who now contains your soul is tormented too. The only way to leave that behind is to forget the person who is dead. So which is better-- forgetting that person or living with their horrible pain? The only thing is, I would live with this pain and so much more just to remember one thing about him.
There is no way I can ever feel all the anguish he did. I guess the beauty of it is that no one person has to take that burden anymore. It is all spread around throughout his acquaintances. The only person who had to take it all, was him. For that reason alone there is no way I could ever blame him for what he did. But as long as I live, I will be missing him.
I miss my brother. I will always miss my brother, and I will never forget.