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so far today i have had under 500 cals..... i hope that i dont eat anymore! if i do im gonna try to eat only a pickle and diet soda . my friend just called and was gonna go to dairy queen. i thought i wouldnt eat that shit today for nothing...it has felt good to be loosing weight instead of gaining. it gets hard in the evening, i get really hungry then.
i just keep thinking of what a disgusting fat ass i will be this summer if i dont loose this weight. i will be far to embarassed to go to the river or anywhere.
i feel like phillip thinks im gross now. even though he says he dont.
im glad its the weekend finally. i am really anxious about that job at the V.a i hope to get it so much!
i dont want to get my hope up, even though i love staying home with the baby....i really want this job!
i just keep thinking of what a disgusting fat ass i will be this summer if i dont loose this weight. i will be far to embarassed to go to the river or anywhere.
i feel like phillip thinks im gross now. even though he says he dont.
im glad its the weekend finally. i am really anxious about that job at the V.a i hope to get it so much!
i dont want to get my hope up, even though i love staying home with the baby....i really want this job!