confuse me?

[fat_marmacet]

it may be the tiredness talking.. but what a strange place im in. im starting to really not like my job anymore.. its just boring.. im not goin anywhere.. yeah.. i make great money and theyre so generous with trips and bonuses and everything.. but im not being challenged here. and then there's the other stuff.. the josh stuff.. im starting to like him a lot.. and.. i feel myself holding back a little bit.. not just because of my past.. but because of his present.. things seem to be comlicated and i dont know if they are for sure.. merr.. i think im just thinking to much into it.. but yeah.. and i miss school.. i dont feel stimulated intellectually. im not learning anything.. and my brain is slipping into atrophy.. i need stimulation!!! get this boy to a museum! stat! or the nearest bar.. haha..

san luis is coming up.. thatll be fun.. ill get to see my old friends.. i love 21st bdays.. theyre always a blast.. hopefully james doesnt barf this time. ; ) so atleast i have something to look forward to! i just need sleep.. yeah.. that sounds good..

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