Feb 18, 2005 23:51
spontaneous infatuations approach me in two different ways. initially i get happy and giggly, thinking about all the 'fun' i'm going to have now that i have a somewhat decent reason to be. but after a while, which usually means 2 days for me, i get annoyed. not annoyed at the person my 'infatuation' is directed towards, but more at myself. i hate the realization of my thoughtless decisions, like a snail that enters my house suddenly sees that there is no way out but to dry out and die. to avoid that would be sufficient of a reason to stay away from little girly crushes. bah. i'm not getting married until i turn 43.
I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life.
- Henry David Thoreau