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APRIL 21st 2005: worst daii of my life
PART I
yeterdaii was filled with drama ... tears ... anger ... and heart ache. it was a normal daii in school and im off to my homeroom class and im in there for bout 5 minutes (not even) and tahnee and talisa come bustin up in my class and tahnee asks me "u have a problem wit me?" i said "no" and asked wat happened and talisa like she always do told me da 411 (sheree yelled and tahnee sayin no1 likes her) den da sub i had in da class told them to get out so i got da pass and went to the bathrrom where i saw sasha talisa and tahnee were all just talkin bout wat happened in da hallway earlier and the topic of sheree came up ... i told tahnee dat sheree called her dirty but i didnt really mean it da way it came out (there really is no good way to say it huh? but i didnt mean for it to be all on sheree cause i took part of it too) then thanee just lost in ... she was punchin walls and she locked herself in a stall we tried to calm her down but it wasnt workin then we went in da hallways and tahenee was just screamin (i neva say her like dis and it made me scared) then Mr Higgins comes out of his office red faced (wait his face is always red) and he starts yellin at us and tellin tahnee dat no matta wat happened to her it doesnt mean she could run up and down th hallways screamin den he gave her a full day of IS ... i went back to class ... sad ... mad ... words cant describe how i felt... then bout 15 minutes of homeroom was left and im called up to da office ... so i walked into Ms. Suarez office and i see tahnee ... then saha comes in ... den sheree ... dats wen all hell broke loose ... there was screamin yellin tears ... i was caught in da middle of this shit (jus wen i thought dat i changed for the best im considered da big mouth again ... da one dat cant keep her mouth shut for shit .. da one da u cant tell a secert to or it ends up all ova da school but i guess i didn't change) so after we left her office we sat outside and just talked things out ... all the talkin we did didnt help well at least i think it didnt ... things would neva be the same between all of us now matter how much i say things are ok its not ... i feel as if tahnee cant be herself around us and i know she feels da same way too ... and i know sheree feels lonlely, feels as if she has no one to talk to but she does ... she has all of us .... and i feel as if i have to balance sheree and thanee and i always have to watch wat i say .... its so weird ... i just wish things cane go back to the way they were ... i left school dat daii feelin liek shit do i went to sleep
PART II
I wasnt pickin up any of my phone calls last night cause i didnt really want to talk to anyone and i was tired but i kept on hearing da ring "Get Loose" on my phone and i knew it was Talisa so i picked it up but it wasnt her it was her man Torre... he was like "wat up Tanya: and i was like "nuttin" den to make a long storii short he asked me if i went wit his brother and i said "no" then he goes "you know he got a gurl?" WHAT!!!!! i stayed as calm as possiible as i can on da phone but wen we hung up i was so mad .. damn i never felt dat stupid or like such an ass as i did at da moment .... i felt like a 2 timin hoe ... whore ... slut ... i just was so pissed and mad at da same time ... i had to take some Nyquil to fall alseep cause if i didnt do dat my ass would of neva went back to sleep.....