i have no clue what this is gonna be about..

[fastpitchgirl22]

so its been a while since i last updated...well since around the last day of school but that wasnt really an update. so whatever...i pretty much talked to all of you about summer...so i dont think ill mention much about that...lets just sum it up...RELAXING...unlike now. where i dont know what to think anymore im stressed one day, pissed another, completely depressed, super hyper, super happy, and those non-emotional days... i really do not like school much right now. band is the only class i look forward to every day. i love the music and i can jsut relax...cept for solos. my heart goes a million beats per minute...and i dont know why. i practice it all the time and i still cant get it to sound the way i want it to. to me its just not good enough...like everything i do lately.. nothing is good enough. whether its with friends, school or family. i just dont get it. blah. spanish is crap. i suck at it. alp..is alp. so far im thinking our project is gonna work out...i know some of you dont like the fact that you didnt get the topic you wanted....but it is a group dicision. just because you didnt get your topic doesnt mean that you need to lash that the ppl how put your topic down. its good to get a varitey. ok? chemsity is the boringest thing on the planet. i could literally get an A in sleeping. math. joy. not. and then lovely astronomy...i really dislike that subject with a passion. its not only boring but its and entertaining boring where you laugh at how boring the class really is. or how loud and obnoxious ian williams laugh is. ahh. i think that is actully the high light of my day when i get to hear that laugh. lol its hilarious! .....then there is my stupid knee. i cant stand it!!!!!! can some one jsut get me a buchers knife so i can chop it off or some one do it for me because i am literally sick of the pain. every day. bubbles.pops.cracks.sharp pains. im not exagerating either. and nor do i where my brace for fricken ATTENTION!!!! gol!!! i dont do it for sympathy or to be looked at when i limp be asked wahts wrong! i do it because it hurts!! ok? get me?! (that was mainly me screaming at my mom) ugh! like i siad i really dont know what this entry is about...im just rambling on and on... oooh good news...well kinda. idk im happy about it! but i got a puppy. well temparaly (sp?). jsut for MEA weeked!! well monday!! he name is junior and he is the cutiest pup and the nicest pup that i have every met. i've known him for a while jsut never really spent a whole half of a day with him. i just wanna squeeze him!! lol. and i complain way to much wow...so i guess for now thats i all i really wanna say...i guess...i cant really say whats bothering me because i cant put it in a nice way...and i dont think its the right time to say it either...but i will say that something is bothering me...yeah..thats all.....if you read that.. ha...im sorry...not really...idk...bye..

have a nice MEA weekend ppl.

<3 phurn