God damn it.
First of all, i dont understand why nothing is working out for me. i mean guy wise...im completely content and happy with being single...but then when an opportunity comes along,i blow it off...and then am forced by my wonderful friends to be optimistic and give it a chance...then comes the let down... its fucking ridiculous.and its not like its happened once...or TWICE.!Haha thats my luck though, id expect nothing less from the guys i get involved with. doesnt mean it doesnt suck though. otherwise...goodness goodness...christmas almost woo hoo its gonna kick ass i hope. my cousin is like 12 and talking to me about all her boyfriends and how shes dating her ex's best friend. oh yea...and hes a quarterback with a nice build...WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO...A nice build?! your 12!!! ahh so school is fucking gay... but thats nothing new.
I miss Cullen so much I wish he could just move back. His mom is such an asshole I dont get her. Its not his fault, or hers really...but i just wish he was here...its so hard having your best friend in another state...not being able to see him when i want to. Hes doing an awesome job though, and amazingly our friendship is as well.im glad i can be with him over christmas break.he means so much to me. <3
Now that I got all that love out of me i can keep venting. I miss everyone from middle school, we used to be so close and think we'd be friends forever...people change...and unfortunately half of them really suck now. their perceptions of reality are just completely warped. oh well...i guess its time to move on.
I miss Cullen so much I wish he could just move back. His mom is such an asshole I dont get her. Its not his fault, or hers really...but i just wish he was here...its so hard having your best friend in another state...not being able to see him when i want to. Hes doing an awesome job though, and amazingly our friendship is as well.im glad i can be with him over christmas break.he means so much to me. <3
Now that I got all that love out of me i can keep venting. I miss everyone from middle school, we used to be so close and think we'd be friends forever...people change...and unfortunately half of them really suck now. their perceptions of reality are just completely warped. oh well...i guess its time to move on.