Mar 09, 2005 17:59
"I've been thinking about you
In the most peculiar way
I've been thinking about you
It's unbelievable to me
But suddenly I think
I'm falling in love with you"
I dread good byes with the people that mean the most to me. However, cya laters just seem so much better. A good bye just seems so final and you never know if you will see this person again. But, a cya later, you might not see the person for a year or more even, but it's a little reassurance that it seems closer to seeing that person than it would have been if you said good bye. Both are very difficult, but one just seems easier than the other. The absolute worst is not saying a cya later or a good bye at all and then later on wishing you had, because you realized that you should have at least done that. What if I had said good bye, something may have been different, and I'm pretty sure that it would have slightly changed. I think about it all the time. Anytime I don't say good bye to anyone or I leave it on a bad note, I feel horrible and selfish and I hate thinking what if. But there are only two moments that I can actually remember and have stuck with me and I hate those moments. Just, to all of you, say good bye if anything and cya later with a hug. Don't leave and not say anything, that is the worst you could do. Ew, I'm sounding like a mother or a teacher, haha teaching you guys this lesson, but it is true. Something could have happened and I am just left wondering...
P.S.--I am not talking about saying good bye or cya later to the people you see everyday, though you should, it's not my point haha I think you guys probably figured that out.
Anyway...I got my schedule for track and all those papers along with it, I read them all and I really want to do well this season and I'm going to work hard...p.s. I might try high jump because it was recommended by ali and ms. bolton and I always wanted to, but I never knew if I could actually. We will see. I'm just actually looking forward to working hard, but not track itself. I am going to work really, really hard and get far and be satisfied with my races because I will do well in them. I am putting my heart and soul into this season.
But right now I'm not in the mood to watch tv, go online, or anything, I am going to wallow. Like on Gilmore Girls. My new favorite show. So cya later.