mothers day
Some day. all that my family is saying all day is fuck this fuck that fuck you or whatever. everyone is screaming. im in my room right now my dad is making stuff on the grill. everyones yelling at eachother with the windows open as usuall. I played my classical guitar outside today for about two hours. I got really sun burned today and yesterday i went to watch benn play golf. I didnt have much fun especially the fact that i got bunrdt. I keep trying so hard to stay positive and write positive entrys. its just not going to happen somedays will be good and others will be not good at all. some people dont realize how important music is to me. honestly the only reason Im not completly fucked up with my meds is because im trying to work hard with my guitar and my lessons and its very important to me. im crying right now. nobody to cry to or anyone to talk to. I havent cried in a while. I cant cry out loud like I want to because I dont want them coming in my room ill just sit in here until it stops. im sick of my thoughts bouncing this way and that. sometimes i think things are going well and then the whole world crashes down on me. i think im going to go now.