look's like morning in your eyes
but the afternoon's already come and gone...
It is exactly like my room, like my clothes, like my environment...if I'm just going to leave them all behind when I grow up, then what is the point of investing anything into them? but I guess this point is somewhat irrelevant...contradictory in a way that I know makes sense...although to me, life has little or no meaning, if I could just skip every time I felt like I shouldn't get too familiar or dependent, I would be dead. life constantly changes, so I guess we should stop being babies when it comes to change and acquiesce to the current. so you should vest effort and emotion and trust into all the things you want to, because life is too short to deny yourselves the things you want--especially since life is so shitty--and because it doesn't matter...you might think that saying "it doesn't matter" would support a helpless surrender to laziness, and it does...but it also means that since nothing matters, you should at least do things and surround ourselves with the things you want to be surrounded with, things you want near you instead of settling for less. alright. that's enough.
A continuation...
svetlana and I went to rid of her frappuchino-virginity and our time together was cut too short. it was immature...which parallels to our discussion of death...so lets all put pistols to the heads of those claiming to hate life and see whether they beg or whether they comply. lets test to see whether they really don't care if death arrives before they are ready
It is exactly like my room, like my clothes, like my environment...if I'm just going to leave them all behind when I grow up, then what is the point of investing anything into them? but I guess this point is somewhat irrelevant...contradictory in a way that I know makes sense...although to me, life has little or no meaning, if I could just skip every time I felt like I shouldn't get too familiar or dependent, I would be dead. life constantly changes, so I guess we should stop being babies when it comes to change and acquiesce to the current. so you should vest effort and emotion and trust into all the things you want to, because life is too short to deny yourselves the things you want--especially since life is so shitty--and because it doesn't matter...you might think that saying "it doesn't matter" would support a helpless surrender to laziness, and it does...but it also means that since nothing matters, you should at least do things and surround ourselves with the things you want to be surrounded with, things you want near you instead of settling for less. alright. that's enough.
A continuation...
svetlana and I went to rid of her frappuchino-virginity and our time together was cut too short. it was immature...which parallels to our discussion of death...so lets all put pistols to the heads of those claiming to hate life and see whether they beg or whether they comply. lets test to see whether they really don't care if death arrives before they are ready