catching up...
Wow. Okay. It's been forever since I've posted here, but certainly not forever since I've used the journal. And I'm guessing it's feeling a little neglected, but I thought I'd at least share some positivity.
About a year ago, I bought my very first dildo. Though this is, in one way, a blow to my creativity (makeup brush handles, among other things, have been substitutes), I think it remains my best decision EVER.
Because I'm still a bit squeamish about admitting to being sexual at all (amusingly, when talking frankly about sex and masturbation, friends are always surprised when I'm comfortable enough to admit I do it - they seem surprised I'd know what the word means...not sure how to take that, haha), I used Babeland (formerly Toys in Babeland) because I knew the name and as a "brand", they are discreet and because I know that sometimes my mom still gets an odd bit of mail here and there for me, I definitely didn't want her seeing a credit card bill and making conclusions.
So I bought this one, which although it is meant to be a vibrating dildo, I actually tend to use the two pieces separately - penetration with the dildo and clit stimulation with the bullet vibe.
Let me also point out that I'd never used any sort of vibrator before, and it took me WEEKS before I actually used the dildo because I'd touch that vibe to my clit and be D-O-N-E, coming with only one finger in barely to the second knuckle. I keep reading articles about how one is not supposed to use a vibe directly on their clit too much lest you become insensitive to lesser stimulation, but I find that I can get off even when the batteries start to go with a low hum (it's actually only one speed), and I will still sometimes not use it at all, so, so-far-so-good.
Since I am still in possession of my V-card (the closer I approach 30, which is becoming rapidly, the more this bothers me, but the fact that I'm confident and intelligent is apparently too aggressive and a turn-off because I "don't seem interested" is a rant for another time - I'm actually incredibly shy sexually and possibly quite a bit dense, so I need a dominant personality that is okay with me being dominant as well...but that's another discussion for not-now), the slimmer size of the Mistress was perfect - took me awhile to get used to it, but now it works swimmingly and because it's thicker than any of the not-dildos I've used in the past, I actually started to catch on to that whole non-clitoral orgasm thing. (Though in truth I tend to favor both the vibe and the dildo)
Which brings me to my next thing...am thinking of, well, not upgrading, because the teal one (I don't name them...I name everything else, from laptop to iPod, but so far, not my dildo) will always be a favorite, but am thinking of supplementing my collection.
I suppose when one goes from one in a box under the bed (or in the basket on my bathroom sink...yay for living alone!) to more than one it truly does become a toybox.
Because I'm not quite sure I'm ready to spend the bucks on something I don't know if I'm going to like, I thought I'd try The Leo, which is basically a longer, thicker version of the Mistress with a bit more shaping.
I've always been reluctant to try more "classic" and less pliable dildos like Boss Lady simply because I worry I'll injure myself...heh
About a year ago, I bought my very first dildo. Though this is, in one way, a blow to my creativity (makeup brush handles, among other things, have been substitutes), I think it remains my best decision EVER.
Because I'm still a bit squeamish about admitting to being sexual at all (amusingly, when talking frankly about sex and masturbation, friends are always surprised when I'm comfortable enough to admit I do it - they seem surprised I'd know what the word means...not sure how to take that, haha), I used Babeland (formerly Toys in Babeland) because I knew the name and as a "brand", they are discreet and because I know that sometimes my mom still gets an odd bit of mail here and there for me, I definitely didn't want her seeing a credit card bill and making conclusions.
So I bought this one, which although it is meant to be a vibrating dildo, I actually tend to use the two pieces separately - penetration with the dildo and clit stimulation with the bullet vibe.
Let me also point out that I'd never used any sort of vibrator before, and it took me WEEKS before I actually used the dildo because I'd touch that vibe to my clit and be D-O-N-E, coming with only one finger in barely to the second knuckle. I keep reading articles about how one is not supposed to use a vibe directly on their clit too much lest you become insensitive to lesser stimulation, but I find that I can get off even when the batteries start to go with a low hum (it's actually only one speed), and I will still sometimes not use it at all, so, so-far-so-good.
Since I am still in possession of my V-card (the closer I approach 30, which is becoming rapidly, the more this bothers me, but the fact that I'm confident and intelligent is apparently too aggressive and a turn-off because I "don't seem interested" is a rant for another time - I'm actually incredibly shy sexually and possibly quite a bit dense, so I need a dominant personality that is okay with me being dominant as well...but that's another discussion for not-now), the slimmer size of the Mistress was perfect - took me awhile to get used to it, but now it works swimmingly and because it's thicker than any of the not-dildos I've used in the past, I actually started to catch on to that whole non-clitoral orgasm thing. (Though in truth I tend to favor both the vibe and the dildo)
Which brings me to my next thing...am thinking of, well, not upgrading, because the teal one (I don't name them...I name everything else, from laptop to iPod, but so far, not my dildo) will always be a favorite, but am thinking of supplementing my collection.
I suppose when one goes from one in a box under the bed (or in the basket on my bathroom sink...yay for living alone!) to more than one it truly does become a toybox.
Because I'm not quite sure I'm ready to spend the bucks on something I don't know if I'm going to like, I thought I'd try The Leo, which is basically a longer, thicker version of the Mistress with a bit more shaping.
I've always been reluctant to try more "classic" and less pliable dildos like Boss Lady simply because I worry I'll injure myself...heh