the twon towers of johnson county still stand strong together...
Back to the special person who loves me--Thanks stf. You are the greatest. I know that I can always come to you when I need help. I didn't once hesitate coming to your house last night when I was upset because I knew you would make me feel better, or at least let me figure everything out on my own just by rambling to you.
This thing with Thom is definitely out of control and I wish none of this had ever happened between us, but unfortunately, it did, and so I have to face the reality of it and deal with the repurcussions of both my and Thom's actions (somebody has to if he won't). I wish that I could be a guy just for one day so I could understand the logistics of a guy's mind. What was he thinking?
I'm going to say something incredibly bratty and selfish--just a warning :) I can't figure out whether or not he sould be trying to get ahold of me to apologize. On one hand, I think he should just stay away from me and respect what I said about staying away from me. But then there's that part of me that strives for attention even when I push it away, and that part of me is telling me that if he really cared for me (even as my best friend) wouldn't he be trying to get ahold of me to say goodbye or get me to forgive him or something? I don't know what I'm talking about. And I have no idea if you can understand my incoherrent {spelling} ramblings. I love you so much. And I am so glad I have a best friend like you. Especially through f*cked up times
like this.
love,
steph
This thing with Thom is definitely out of control and I wish none of this had ever happened between us, but unfortunately, it did, and so I have to face the reality of it and deal with the repurcussions of both my and Thom's actions (somebody has to if he won't). I wish that I could be a guy just for one day so I could understand the logistics of a guy's mind. What was he thinking?
I'm going to say something incredibly bratty and selfish--just a warning :) I can't figure out whether or not he sould be trying to get ahold of me to apologize. On one hand, I think he should just stay away from me and respect what I said about staying away from me. But then there's that part of me that strives for attention even when I push it away, and that part of me is telling me that if he really cared for me (even as my best friend) wouldn't he be trying to get ahold of me to say goodbye or get me to forgive him or something? I don't know what I'm talking about. And I have no idea if you can understand my incoherrent {spelling} ramblings. I love you so much. And I am so glad I have a best friend like you. Especially through f*cked up times
like this.
love,
steph