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Things in my life have been up and down the past two weeks, and I have pretty much been on an emotional roller coaster through it all. I graduated college last weekend, the same weekend of my step father's father's funeral. My mommy came up with my grandparents, while my step father stayed home to be with his mom and his side of the family through everything. Now today at work, my mom calls from her hospital to tell me she just had my step father admitted for emergency surgery. (sidenote: kidney stones run in the male side of his family) - so he's having some operation because he has a really bad one now. So, he wont' be able to travel this coming weekend for my younger brother's high school graduation. To top it, my aunt Linda, who is a minister, may have breast cancer.
So that's the family side of my life at the moment. In my own life, I'm dealing with about a million stresses over this huge move to Chicago that's coming up in the next six weeks. I have a week trip planned June 14th which is dedicated to apartment hunting, meetings with Marshall Fields' human resources director, and time with Justen. Frankly, Justy time is the most important part of the trip to me, even though I need to focus on the reasons I'm going on this trip just a little. He'll be in school for two of the 4 days anyhow, so that'll give me time to get my things taken care of and still get to enjoy his company while I'm in town.
Tonight everything that's been going on in my life kind of snowballed on me, and I ended up breaking down in tears and freaking out on Justen. I felt this coming for a while now, every since my emotions started crumbling and I've been hit with more and more to deal with; it was just a matter of time before the dam broke and I just totally lost it. I feel so bad that I had to lose it on you, Justen, and the things you said to me when I needed to hear them were the best answers I could ask for. Time and time again, you've been there for me when I've needed you to be. Thank you Justen... for listening. I'm going to bed. I'm ready for this day to be over, and I have plenty of happy things to dream about now.
Sweet dreams...