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Autumn is really starting to settle in except for that weird hotness yesterday. The nights are long and its getting cold. I will be working at a good job soon enough. I'm kind of excited for next year, turning 21, moving far away, making big money. Slowly everyone is moving away from here which is good and bad. At least it feels good and bad. I'm happy with where I am, I love Maryland. I like who I am this year, but next will be even better. I am a person with a lot of ideas and opinions but i've never been good with saying exactly what im trying to say or i'm too insecure to say what I believe.
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I'm still the same way, god knows I can never get my message across to anyone. I think its important to be able to confidently say what you want to say and I think it adds a lot to your personality when you do so. I don't know what i'm trying to make things matter. I don't know, i'm trying to get into some sort of routine to do so. Routine. Consistency. Routine. Consistency. So the way to forget is to keep oneself occupied. Thats the way I always interpert it at first. Just keep yourself busy and you will forget. Though I dont believe thats how it works completely. I don't know what i'm trying to say. AHHHHH!!!
Halloween was good times. Eric had to work unfortunately. Yesterday I tried to go to my job interview but got lost, I mean coming home was no problem, haha. Getting to Upton Street was hard though. I have to go into work at 9:30 today. Eric told me yesterday that "if he reschedules with you TWICE then you've already got the job" (talking about the PA job I keep trying to get.) I thought that was pretty awesome. It's still $15/h but hopefully the hours are a little longer. Maybe they'll just call and say "Ashley, we want you, you start tomorrow!" That would be awesome.
I've been up since 6:30 damn. I need to clean my car this weekend. I did most of it on Saturday for the most part. But I really need to do something about it, it's immaculate now!
Damn maybe i'm trying to avoid the obvious. Probably, but I don't really want to deal now. DAMN YOU ERIC!
(love you eric, xoxo)
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I'm still the same way, god knows I can never get my message across to anyone. I think its important to be able to confidently say what you want to say and I think it adds a lot to your personality when you do so. I don't know what i'm trying to make things matter. I don't know, i'm trying to get into some sort of routine to do so. Routine. Consistency. Routine. Consistency. So the way to forget is to keep oneself occupied. Thats the way I always interpert it at first. Just keep yourself busy and you will forget. Though I dont believe thats how it works completely. I don't know what i'm trying to say. AHHHHH!!!
Halloween was good times. Eric had to work unfortunately. Yesterday I tried to go to my job interview but got lost, I mean coming home was no problem, haha. Getting to Upton Street was hard though. I have to go into work at 9:30 today. Eric told me yesterday that "if he reschedules with you TWICE then you've already got the job" (talking about the PA job I keep trying to get.) I thought that was pretty awesome. It's still $15/h but hopefully the hours are a little longer. Maybe they'll just call and say "Ashley, we want you, you start tomorrow!" That would be awesome.
I've been up since 6:30 damn. I need to clean my car this weekend. I did most of it on Saturday for the most part. But I really need to do something about it, it's immaculate now!
Damn maybe i'm trying to avoid the obvious. Probably, but I don't really want to deal now. DAMN YOU ERIC!
(love you eric, xoxo)