it won't stop. ["you are truly amazing."]

[fashionpassion]

& all these cloudless days

sometimes my heart is just overwhelmed
by
beating
its syn co pa tion
echos in c a v e r n o u s expanses
left ventricle, left atrium,
rightventricle. rightatrium
in and out and
circulate
get the word out
starved for affection
thirsting for attention
make think say DO
innovate
create:
hesitations
condemnations
resentful recognitions
bitter
b
a
c
k
b
o
n
e
s
left to please the public
while possible permanence
exudes
forgone fortitude
and left are days of dreams
replaced with anxious assurances
that i can make it
it'll be all right, it'll be all right
[fading to background vocals]
& then hands
&hugs
&hope
words of a well-wisher
someone of support
finally
fostering the facts
refusing to relent
making me mine myself for minerals
built in boldness/bravery/belief
amazing accountings
what he could see
discernment
when i needed it most
distraction
when it came in huge gulps
determination
when i thought i had none
continually confirming
that faith can still be found
that depending can still be done
that trusting can still be true
loyalty isn't lackadaisical
loving is work
beat
thump
beatbeatbeat
cadence clearly condenses:
weak beats getting stressed
injured insides
bypass after bypass
redirecting these rhythms