If merit had it's just rewards...
...she ought to be mine!
This is an IM convesation I had with one of my friends this evening about what's been bothering me. I thought it summed up my feelings better than i could have with a frustrated blog, because we talked it out. (I hope this friend doesn't mind that I've shared our conversation)
Friend: was mel sad when you said we (or I) werent going?
Me: i haven't talked to her
Me: but i think i'm gonna go now
Me: i really want to get out of port huron for a night or something.
Friend: where are you going?
Me: to mels
Friend: oh okay
Friend: have fun!
Me: i'll try
Friend: who else is going?
Friend: whats wrong?
Me: i don't know
Me: bre keeps ignoring me and i'm trying my best to get over it but it's hard
Friend: ignoring!?
Me: yeah
Friend: why would she do that!
Me: i stopped by her house today like i always do and because ben's there she ignores me
Me: if you notice she didn't really talk to me all that much at the party either
Friend: I am sorry, that isnt nice at all
Friend: yeah
Me: basically i got the niceties at the beginning and then the niceties at 12 but that's it
Me: so...
Me: you know
Friend: yeah...
Me: it seems like he's always around
Me: and it's annoying
Friend: gosh, that shouldnt happen....its not fair
Me: he get's to have her within minutes' distance for most of the year and yet he has to come up here and butt in on my time
Me: it's not
Me: but that's life i guess
Friend: if i ever do anything close to that
Friend: pleaase please smack me
Friend: and tell me!
Me: i will
Friend: I never want to do that to any of my friends
Me: we're supposed to do something before she leaves on the 15th but if he end up coming with her i'm gonna ask her to talk to me in private and tell her i need to leave because i can't be around "them"
Friend: yeah
Friend: definatly
Me: it will hurt her and me but i need to say it
Me: i feel crapped on
Friend: she needs to know!
Me: and what's worse is it's not even just her
Me: i feel like jeffrey's doing it to me too
Me: not the whole ignoring thing but i think he regards ben's opinion more than mine now
Friend: woah!
Friend: oh no
Friend: no no no
Me: ie. he was having trouble with his i-pod and i tried to help him and he was kind of like whatever and then he asked ben right in front of me
Friend: ben does not equal god all high and mighty
Friend: oh no
Me: so needless to say i'm ticked
Me: yeah
Me: that's how i feel
Friend: I would be too...you have every right
Me: i just don't understand how she can't see...
Me: can't see that she's hurting me
Friend: yeah
Me: seriously i've cried more about her this year than my parents or family stuff
Friend: yeah, I know
Friend: its crazy
Me: i know she never reciprocated my feelings so i shouldn't be blaming it on her but it was hard not to feel that way towards her
Friend: I dont like when people devote themselfs to a boyfirend or even gf that way....it puts a strain on friendships
Me: it's true
Me: we had all these implied plans to hang out this break and since she and ben got more serious it was like whatever
Friend: ehhh
Me: what kills me is right before she came home she told me how much she missed me and now i haven't seen her alone since thanksgiving
Friend: man o man....talk about mixed signals no?
Friend: or somewhat
Me: you are correct miss
Me: i'm glad you are here to talk about this with
Me: i wanted to write a blog but it wouldn't come out
Friend: hey, its what we do....you know I will always listen
Friend: ;o)
Me: :-Dthanks
Friend: anytime
Me: that's why you're my number 1 anymore!
Friend: hope you have fun tonight....try to forget about her a litle bit and think of ALL the other friends that care about ya
Friend: awww, thanks seth ;o)
Me: thank you too!
Me: i will try
Friend: okay...talk to you later
Me: later gator!
This is an IM convesation I had with one of my friends this evening about what's been bothering me. I thought it summed up my feelings better than i could have with a frustrated blog, because we talked it out. (I hope this friend doesn't mind that I've shared our conversation)
Friend: was mel sad when you said we (or I) werent going?
Me: i haven't talked to her
Me: but i think i'm gonna go now
Me: i really want to get out of port huron for a night or something.
Friend: where are you going?
Me: to mels
Friend: oh okay
Friend: have fun!
Me: i'll try
Friend: who else is going?
Friend: whats wrong?
Me: i don't know
Me: bre keeps ignoring me and i'm trying my best to get over it but it's hard
Friend: ignoring!?
Me: yeah
Friend: why would she do that!
Me: i stopped by her house today like i always do and because ben's there she ignores me
Me: if you notice she didn't really talk to me all that much at the party either
Friend: I am sorry, that isnt nice at all
Friend: yeah
Me: basically i got the niceties at the beginning and then the niceties at 12 but that's it
Me: so...
Me: you know
Friend: yeah...
Me: it seems like he's always around
Me: and it's annoying
Friend: gosh, that shouldnt happen....its not fair
Me: he get's to have her within minutes' distance for most of the year and yet he has to come up here and butt in on my time
Me: it's not
Me: but that's life i guess
Friend: if i ever do anything close to that
Friend: pleaase please smack me
Friend: and tell me!
Me: i will
Friend: I never want to do that to any of my friends
Me: we're supposed to do something before she leaves on the 15th but if he end up coming with her i'm gonna ask her to talk to me in private and tell her i need to leave because i can't be around "them"
Friend: yeah
Friend: definatly
Me: it will hurt her and me but i need to say it
Me: i feel crapped on
Friend: she needs to know!
Me: and what's worse is it's not even just her
Me: i feel like jeffrey's doing it to me too
Me: not the whole ignoring thing but i think he regards ben's opinion more than mine now
Friend: woah!
Friend: oh no
Friend: no no no
Me: ie. he was having trouble with his i-pod and i tried to help him and he was kind of like whatever and then he asked ben right in front of me
Friend: ben does not equal god all high and mighty
Friend: oh no
Me: so needless to say i'm ticked
Me: yeah
Me: that's how i feel
Friend: I would be too...you have every right
Me: i just don't understand how she can't see...
Me: can't see that she's hurting me
Friend: yeah
Me: seriously i've cried more about her this year than my parents or family stuff
Friend: yeah, I know
Friend: its crazy
Me: i know she never reciprocated my feelings so i shouldn't be blaming it on her but it was hard not to feel that way towards her
Friend: I dont like when people devote themselfs to a boyfirend or even gf that way....it puts a strain on friendships
Me: it's true
Me: we had all these implied plans to hang out this break and since she and ben got more serious it was like whatever
Friend: ehhh
Me: what kills me is right before she came home she told me how much she missed me and now i haven't seen her alone since thanksgiving
Friend: man o man....talk about mixed signals no?
Friend: or somewhat
Me: you are correct miss
Me: i'm glad you are here to talk about this with
Me: i wanted to write a blog but it wouldn't come out
Friend: hey, its what we do....you know I will always listen
Friend: ;o)
Me: :-Dthanks
Friend: anytime
Me: that's why you're my number 1 anymore!
Friend: hope you have fun tonight....try to forget about her a litle bit and think of ALL the other friends that care about ya
Friend: awww, thanks seth ;o)
Me: thank you too!
Me: i will try
Friend: okay...talk to you later
Me: later gator!