D - I - V - O - R - C - E
wow! it's been forever since i've updated! it's been too long i think. so i'm going to start up again. there's too much crap going on my life not to.
i think i've told pretty much everybody this but to those who don't know......my parents are getting divorced. i've known for quite a while...i mean, my mom moved out a month and a half ago but i didn't think that writing it in a blog was the best way to tell people. so i told most in person or at least over the phone. i'm pretty well adjusted to the whole thing now. my mom lives at the north end and jean-luc lives with her. i'm stuck living with my dad because she can only have one other person living with her in her apartment. it obviously wasn't my first choice to live here but surprisingly it isn't bad except when my dad wants to talk to me about it. i just ignore him and eventually he goes away. it's none of my business what is going on and i try to stay out of it, but sometimes it's impossible because he's always making rude comments. they piss me off but if i want someplace to live that isn't out in BFE then i have to bite my tongue a lot. he seems to have gotten the picture lately though because he doesn't say much about it anymore. he was pretty upset by it when it first happened as my mom asked for the divorce. he kept trying to get her to reconcile but even i knew it was useless. he had done too much bad crap to her and all of us over the years for her to change her mind and now i wonder if he ever really loved her or if he loved what she could give him...not to be graphic but....sex. it seemed like beside his credit rating being good all he ever cared about besides was whether he was getting any. you could tell when he didn't because then everyone paid for it the next day. and now, not even six weeks after my mom moved out he's started seeing someone. he had the audacity to bring her to our house this weekend and if i had not been so flustered by it i would have told him what was what! as it is i didn't say much of anything so maybe he gets the picture. i swear if he thinks she'll be staying the night here ever he has another thing coming to him because the minute that happens i'll be at my mom's or grandma's so fast it'll make his head spin. i will not stay in the same house with that woman. i felt dirty enough saying hi to her. it feels like an insult to my mom. especially for him to bring her to the house where they were married. it would be completely different if he had an apartment too and he took her there but it's not. this was their house together and i can't believe he brought HER here. it makes my stomach churn. i don't know...it's all so confusing. i guess i should look at the bright side. it gets him out of the house. he was hardly home all weekend. he actually stayed with her friday, saturday and sunday night and today i get home and there's a note that he won't be home tonight either with $20 attached that has to last me the week. he better believe if he's not gonna be here all week that he better be giving me more money for groceries because can't no one buy groceries for a week with $20. anyways...that's all i have i guess. i don't think this blog had any clear path really so since i can't think of anything i guess i'm done.
i think i've told pretty much everybody this but to those who don't know......my parents are getting divorced. i've known for quite a while...i mean, my mom moved out a month and a half ago but i didn't think that writing it in a blog was the best way to tell people. so i told most in person or at least over the phone. i'm pretty well adjusted to the whole thing now. my mom lives at the north end and jean-luc lives with her. i'm stuck living with my dad because she can only have one other person living with her in her apartment. it obviously wasn't my first choice to live here but surprisingly it isn't bad except when my dad wants to talk to me about it. i just ignore him and eventually he goes away. it's none of my business what is going on and i try to stay out of it, but sometimes it's impossible because he's always making rude comments. they piss me off but if i want someplace to live that isn't out in BFE then i have to bite my tongue a lot. he seems to have gotten the picture lately though because he doesn't say much about it anymore. he was pretty upset by it when it first happened as my mom asked for the divorce. he kept trying to get her to reconcile but even i knew it was useless. he had done too much bad crap to her and all of us over the years for her to change her mind and now i wonder if he ever really loved her or if he loved what she could give him...not to be graphic but....sex. it seemed like beside his credit rating being good all he ever cared about besides was whether he was getting any. you could tell when he didn't because then everyone paid for it the next day. and now, not even six weeks after my mom moved out he's started seeing someone. he had the audacity to bring her to our house this weekend and if i had not been so flustered by it i would have told him what was what! as it is i didn't say much of anything so maybe he gets the picture. i swear if he thinks she'll be staying the night here ever he has another thing coming to him because the minute that happens i'll be at my mom's or grandma's so fast it'll make his head spin. i will not stay in the same house with that woman. i felt dirty enough saying hi to her. it feels like an insult to my mom. especially for him to bring her to the house where they were married. it would be completely different if he had an apartment too and he took her there but it's not. this was their house together and i can't believe he brought HER here. it makes my stomach churn. i don't know...it's all so confusing. i guess i should look at the bright side. it gets him out of the house. he was hardly home all weekend. he actually stayed with her friday, saturday and sunday night and today i get home and there's a note that he won't be home tonight either with $20 attached that has to last me the week. he better believe if he's not gonna be here all week that he better be giving me more money for groceries because can't no one buy groceries for a week with $20. anyways...that's all i have i guess. i don't think this blog had any clear path really so since i can't think of anything i guess i'm done.