don't tell me that it's over...
so today was the last show and as soon as it was over as always after a show i started getting depressed. we cleaned up and whatnot and everything was fine. i didn't feel anything and then everyone started leaving and then i turned off the music in the dressing room and it was the most final sound. i wanted to cry. after that i took all my stuff to the costume room and then i went back to the dressing rooms. as soon as i walked in emilee came out of the girl's bathroom with a tear stained face and we all started talking about the show and how great it was and then i looked up at her again and she was crying. her eyes were huge and full of water and it just set me off. i wanted to ball. i never cry in front of people cuz it's so personal but i feel so personal around these people which is amazing. it's so great to have found people that do that for you. then we all dried our tears and later on we went to emilee's house for games and pizza. it didn't last long but it was still nice and i'm not feeling it as much right now but i think tomorrow it will hit me again when i don't have anything to do anymore. i mean i've spent the past two weeks running around, hither and thither, buying clothes and whatnot and it's just been crazy and tomorrow...nothing. no shopping no stressing no nothing! just emptiness and class! ughh! anywho...at least i know that i strengthened old friendships and made more. so not everything is bad. i mean everything comes to an end after a while. but it just seems so stupid to work on something for two months and have it be over in three days. oh well...i'll always have the memories and nothing, not even getting like this after every show will make me stop. too many good times happen during shows like...(and i don't expect anyone to get this besides jenn)..."the aids," "touch my bush," "the hobbitses are trixy" or "poke out his eyeses," "would you kiss my flower," "nice bush," "wet sausages," "clap! smack!" and the list could go on forever! good times! so at least i have those now! and now it's back to my routine life at 1424 court street. i would post about what's been happening lately but it's just been the play so there's not much to talk about.