Love...a response to a friend....
Soooo....a very close friend of mine wrote a journal entry about love. HMMM....thats what i have to say...HMMM...yeah im sure thats not what you were expecting...hahaha.....
I cant quite decide how i feel about the topic right now, and thats just pure straight up honesty, and...hey, its me, we wouldnt have it any other way would we. To be honest, i think we rely on finding it to much. We shouldnt be looking for it, we should be enjoying life, and if it just so happens to find us, doesnt that make it all the better?
My best friend and i, spend a good chunk of our time dissecting what the males in our life say, and how we should interpert it. Its fun, and sometimes frustrating, and its always thrilling when someone new comes into the picture, or in some of our cases, old comes back into the picture. Or when someone is always there, but we're never quite sure what they are thinking.
But, he created a list of things to do, and not do...why cant i be myself at my best, my worst, at my silliest, at my dorkiest, at my most serious, at the breaking point, at the happiest, being calm, being a bum, BEING ME....i dont want lists, i dont want rules. I want me...not in the form of someone else....good god that would be hell, could you even imagine?!?! But i just wanna go on enjoying what im enjoying right now, hoping things only go up, and realizing that there are ups and downs...and that its cool, thats they way life is. Its the most fun ride we take.
Sometimes i thought coming home to go to school would be the worst choice in the world, but look at my outlook on life since ive moved home, if you've known me for a while...and i mean a gooood chunk of time, and you dont notice a change, then your frickin blind!!! Im calmer, im happier, things get messy, and its ok, i'll clean it up when im not worrying about the important things, like school, or work, or most important my family and having good times with my friends. There's not as much drama...i dont let there be...ive walked away, left it behind, its made me feel good. I dont have to be that melissa that drama seemed to follow every where. I have the best friend in the world who not only keeps me grounded when i dream off in la-la land, ive found another awesome friend, who sometimes, when u meet a person you just click, and *hoping* i get into UGA in time we're gonna be room mates. O people dont freak on me, im gonna have my own room and bathroom, im not ruining this friendship!!!
I've learned that the best sisterhood isnt the one that u take an oath with or share 200 year old secrets with, but the ones that you share 7 year memories with and the ones that you have watched them grow up their whole life. I've learned that that my parents are as cool as i always knew they were, and i love spending time with them.
So sometimes, just because you dont have a significant other in your life of the opposite sex, that doesnt mean that love isnt surronding you at all times. Im not gonna argue and say it wouldnt make it that much sweeter to have someone there, but sometimes sitting back and thinking of the good things.
Lauren and i were right that day when i decided to "take time away"...yeah, it may seem hard, and yeah i like someone, or different people for all kinds of different reasons, but...letting go of all the past "bad" relationships...its good. Its cleansing. But that doesnt mean if someone came along, i wouldnt be interested...;)
I cant quite decide how i feel about the topic right now, and thats just pure straight up honesty, and...hey, its me, we wouldnt have it any other way would we. To be honest, i think we rely on finding it to much. We shouldnt be looking for it, we should be enjoying life, and if it just so happens to find us, doesnt that make it all the better?
My best friend and i, spend a good chunk of our time dissecting what the males in our life say, and how we should interpert it. Its fun, and sometimes frustrating, and its always thrilling when someone new comes into the picture, or in some of our cases, old comes back into the picture. Or when someone is always there, but we're never quite sure what they are thinking.
But, he created a list of things to do, and not do...why cant i be myself at my best, my worst, at my silliest, at my dorkiest, at my most serious, at the breaking point, at the happiest, being calm, being a bum, BEING ME....i dont want lists, i dont want rules. I want me...not in the form of someone else....good god that would be hell, could you even imagine?!?! But i just wanna go on enjoying what im enjoying right now, hoping things only go up, and realizing that there are ups and downs...and that its cool, thats they way life is. Its the most fun ride we take.
Sometimes i thought coming home to go to school would be the worst choice in the world, but look at my outlook on life since ive moved home, if you've known me for a while...and i mean a gooood chunk of time, and you dont notice a change, then your frickin blind!!! Im calmer, im happier, things get messy, and its ok, i'll clean it up when im not worrying about the important things, like school, or work, or most important my family and having good times with my friends. There's not as much drama...i dont let there be...ive walked away, left it behind, its made me feel good. I dont have to be that melissa that drama seemed to follow every where. I have the best friend in the world who not only keeps me grounded when i dream off in la-la land, ive found another awesome friend, who sometimes, when u meet a person you just click, and *hoping* i get into UGA in time we're gonna be room mates. O people dont freak on me, im gonna have my own room and bathroom, im not ruining this friendship!!!
I've learned that the best sisterhood isnt the one that u take an oath with or share 200 year old secrets with, but the ones that you share 7 year memories with and the ones that you have watched them grow up their whole life. I've learned that that my parents are as cool as i always knew they were, and i love spending time with them.
So sometimes, just because you dont have a significant other in your life of the opposite sex, that doesnt mean that love isnt surronding you at all times. Im not gonna argue and say it wouldnt make it that much sweeter to have someone there, but sometimes sitting back and thinking of the good things.
Lauren and i were right that day when i decided to "take time away"...yeah, it may seem hard, and yeah i like someone, or different people for all kinds of different reasons, but...letting go of all the past "bad" relationships...its good. Its cleansing. But that doesnt mean if someone came along, i wouldnt be interested...;)