Long time no post, but cant use myspace for this one
Can't write in my damn blog on myspace...so here it is, first time since, what february....and all i have to say is
There is something seriously wrong with me...yeah, nothing to hard, nothing difficult to figure out....the only reason i cant write it in there, is b/c it definatley has to do with me and relationships....o and im the idiot that dates people and accepts them on myspace...THINK MELISSA, THINK!
"I just wanna chill and talk" usually this is code for....i would like to know where this is headed....DONT DO THAT TO ME....BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD IDEA.....Also...don't text me at 5:01, when i get out of work at 5....it means you have been watching the clock....it also doesnt give me any time to get rid of work, and get prepared for home, friends...anything else that i may have to deal with....im a one situation at a time kind of dealer...sometimes i need 5-15 minutes to myself in my car with the windows down and music blaring....other times, you might be the first person i want to talk to....
Its amazing that sometimes i can see the crash and burn b4 it happens...and i think...NO NO NO stop mel...but then as clare and i discussed its the whole abondonmemt thing....ABONDON THE SHIP BEFORE IT ABONDONS YOU...in this case me....ummm...why the hell wasnt i thinking like this with what-his-face cheater extraordinaire...? (yea i know his name, dont remind me...i dont discuss, i just disgust....and totally dont waste time).
Today i was totally bombarded....my feet were about to fucking fall off my body....5:01....then the pharmacy told me my migraine meds were going to be 50 dollars, and since the lil stunt of me failing my classes....i now pay for those lil damn pills by myself...50 fucking dollars....if i didnt hate my migraines b4 i sure as hell do now. Then im trying to peacefully eat my dinner...and my mother is all like "whats ur plan"....i told you the plan mom....im going to try and go back in the spring, we discussed this a week ago....IM NOT GONNA DO THIS EVERY FUCKING WEEK!!! Yea...some one....shoot me now....it'd prolly just be much better that way!
The amazing thing is.....i know all the bitching about some guy, this one that one, the other one...any one of them that comes along....isnt gonna matter....its gonna be the same damn thing until the right one comes along....so either buck up and deal...and move on with out me myspace dude...i mean u are nice, im not gonna be horrible...hanging out is cool...but....somebody needs to figure out what the hell is wrong with me...break it down, and get in there. B/c everything else in my absolutely not so normal life, is going not so normal....which means its back to normal, and im happy....besides this continuing flaw......
There is something seriously wrong with me...yeah, nothing to hard, nothing difficult to figure out....the only reason i cant write it in there, is b/c it definatley has to do with me and relationships....o and im the idiot that dates people and accepts them on myspace...THINK MELISSA, THINK!
"I just wanna chill and talk" usually this is code for....i would like to know where this is headed....DONT DO THAT TO ME....BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD IDEA.....Also...don't text me at 5:01, when i get out of work at 5....it means you have been watching the clock....it also doesnt give me any time to get rid of work, and get prepared for home, friends...anything else that i may have to deal with....im a one situation at a time kind of dealer...sometimes i need 5-15 minutes to myself in my car with the windows down and music blaring....other times, you might be the first person i want to talk to....
Its amazing that sometimes i can see the crash and burn b4 it happens...and i think...NO NO NO stop mel...but then as clare and i discussed its the whole abondonmemt thing....ABONDON THE SHIP BEFORE IT ABONDONS YOU...in this case me....ummm...why the hell wasnt i thinking like this with what-his-face cheater extraordinaire...? (yea i know his name, dont remind me...i dont discuss, i just disgust....and totally dont waste time).
Today i was totally bombarded....my feet were about to fucking fall off my body....5:01....then the pharmacy told me my migraine meds were going to be 50 dollars, and since the lil stunt of me failing my classes....i now pay for those lil damn pills by myself...50 fucking dollars....if i didnt hate my migraines b4 i sure as hell do now. Then im trying to peacefully eat my dinner...and my mother is all like "whats ur plan"....i told you the plan mom....im going to try and go back in the spring, we discussed this a week ago....IM NOT GONNA DO THIS EVERY FUCKING WEEK!!! Yea...some one....shoot me now....it'd prolly just be much better that way!
The amazing thing is.....i know all the bitching about some guy, this one that one, the other one...any one of them that comes along....isnt gonna matter....its gonna be the same damn thing until the right one comes along....so either buck up and deal...and move on with out me myspace dude...i mean u are nice, im not gonna be horrible...hanging out is cool...but....somebody needs to figure out what the hell is wrong with me...break it down, and get in there. B/c everything else in my absolutely not so normal life, is going not so normal....which means its back to normal, and im happy....besides this continuing flaw......