Life is interesting lately
Well this weekend was just another weekend... Friday night at Juanos was fun and Saturday at Rods uncles was a chill fest! Enjoyable!
Im frustrated lately with things and I cant make my stress go away! well I could but...
My taunte is basically dying...(for those of you who dont know me, thats my name for my great aunt in german) and i cant take it anymore! Im so scared and I feel so bad because Ive gotten so scared that I dont go to the hospital with my mom and grandma anymore. I just dont want her to die and she just lays there barly even alive and I just want to scream and help her, but I cant because she dying right in front of her eyes.Shes so scared and I know I just go there for her I hate myself for not wanting to go but it makes me soo sad and I hate it!!! I feel like a bad person when they get back but I dont know what to do. If she dies not only will I be upset but my mom and grandma will die themselves inside! and theres nothing I can do!!! ughhhhhhhhhh!
sorry for my big speal but I just had to let it out! im so upset about it and have never shown it before
"...I found me alone And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years
I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it"
~ Yellowcard
So thats all for now!