7/23/2012
I am having a hell of a time lately. I know that I am not perfect and have lied in the past but I have grown since then. I have matured and realized that it was not worth it. I have apologized about it all and try to do all I can to prove that there are no more lies. there is no making you see. reality is so much different then what you see. It must be so difficult to be in your brain. I wish you'd see the love I have for you. sure its not perfect and we have a long way to go, but unlike you I have faith in us.....in you!
as if that were not enough I loose a good friend at work. man kimberlee, why did you leave so soon? why couldn't you see how much we all cared. or how much you would be missed. my heart is sad thinking I could have done more for you. I wish I would have done more for you! I will never forget your thoughtfulness. may you rest in peace. may you be comforted by your mom and dad now. I wish you focused this much on the good.
Tonight I just needed a nice warm embrace. I tight hug. i love feeling your strong heartbeat against my chest, the warmth of your skin and your strong manly scent. it awakens all of my senses and I feel connected. I wish you would feel the the rush of emotion and joy I get when your arms are around me. it deeply saddens me that you don't think I deserve just a hug. talk about kicking me when I am down.
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