when

[fashionbel]

When did things get this way?
How could I let them get this far out of control?
How is it that no matter what I do he still thinks I am the completly opposite of who he thinks I am?
How can he not see how much I love him and how hard it is to be with him?
I wish I could show him how easy this could be?
It doesnt have to be this way.
I know that deep down inside there is a good guy.
If he could just let his walls down and see that I am not against him.
That I am not here to judge him.
That as much as he hates hearing it he is pushing me away with his actions.
I pray all the time that he finds peace in his heart and faith that everything will be ok.
One day he is going to get what he most fears, I am going to just walk away.
As painful as that may be.
I pray that he one days sees that women are equal to men, that we deserve to be respected and appreciated.
Please lord make him see how much he hurts me with his actions. Make him realize that I am only reacting to his actions.
It is getting to the point where its too hard to continue and that is my worst fear.