lately

[fashionbel]

Lately
I have not been feeling to much like myself
Like I am a diffrent person
I look in the mirror and I see myself, still
But the look in my eye is not the same
It is in a way more intense
At the same time it is shallow
I feel like I am looking for solutions in the wrong places
But at the time it feels right
Still I don't know what I want
I think I know
But I have no idea
I keep making things worse for myself
Digging myself in a hole I promised myself I would never be in
Things have never been this bad
It is almost as if I need a man to validate who I am
What happened to the independance?
What happened to the fire and passion?
Is the fire burningn for the wrong reason?
Is my passion missdirected?
I don't know anymore
It is time to reevaluate.
Renew
Renovate
Find myself again
Before I end up regretting it
I just hope it is not too late....