May 14, 2004 21:21
Well as another Friday passes by... i find myself waiting for the next day to start and end.... I strongly dislike being smart..... there was once a Greek philosopher that said, "The only good is knowledge, and the only evil is ignorance." .... well i have to strongly disagree with him.... having knowledge is not always good.... like i hate knowing people that like me that "think" i don't know and having to 'pretend" like i'm an idiot.... i hate watching friends plot against other friends and only being able to influence them by words and hints and by not directly solving the issues... i hate knowing peoples problems and being able to solve them and yet not being able to solve my own.... i guess that kinda goes back to the whole "thinking out of the box"... u can't solve a problem without looking at it through different perspectives.... we are all prisoners of "the box".... i hate seeing my friends get hurt... especially when its themselves that hurt them.... i hate feeling empathy for them and not telling them its themselves that are the problem.... i dunno... i guess i just would like to be ignorant for sometime to see what its like... they say that "ignorance is bliss".... i dunno if thats true but then again i've never tried it... i dunno i guess i just hate having to put on this daily facade that hides what i really know from the world... i just wish... i could tell someone.... everything...