Yes, I still exist
Recently, I have said to many people that LJ is dead to me. Most of the time it really is, and even when it's not, to me it still is. Get it? I hate buggish pages. I see enough of it at my work. I see no reason to post into blogs that cause me extra work and at worst case fuck up everything I try to do there.
Anyway. Lately, I have loved and hated my life equally (remember the balance in everything, people!). At the moment it looks hopeful although uncertain, but I guess as long as I don't need to feel devastated, it's all good. There's been surprises in my life too, of which I am glad. Was already afraid I'd never again experience such feelings and things. It's almost as if I'd got my old self back. I guess my scars are healing or something.
This probably doesn't make any sense to you, but it doesn't have to. The magic tends to break when you say it out loud, so now, at the decent age of 27 I have finally learned to shut up sometimes. So, let's be happy while it lasts.
Anyway. Lately, I have loved and hated my life equally (remember the balance in everything, people!). At the moment it looks hopeful although uncertain, but I guess as long as I don't need to feel devastated, it's all good. There's been surprises in my life too, of which I am glad. Was already afraid I'd never again experience such feelings and things. It's almost as if I'd got my old self back. I guess my scars are healing or something.
This probably doesn't make any sense to you, but it doesn't have to. The magic tends to break when you say it out loud, so now, at the decent age of 27 I have finally learned to shut up sometimes. So, let's be happy while it lasts.