Bed in, like Shinji would say
Got back home just a moment ago. Fixed myself some ryebread with cheese and chicken pieces (with oregano) and now I chill in bed with my laptop.
Ah, it's been a shitty week. Well, not as bad as the one before that, but anyways. So, I'm glad I got to go and visit dear Nera to Turku and drink 3 liter of wine with her. 3 liter! o.o
You can guess what kind of condition we were in after that. xD
And the food she made was almost literally sexing my mouth. Made of awesome. She's made of awesome.
Too bad those highlights of my life don't last for long and I have to come back to my ordinary life, working and wondering what the heck to do. Lately those days at work have felt even more tough, because there's always some crisis going on and I feel like I'm doing the work of my coworkers too.
Also, they already make me work 10 hours a day and then take it for granted that they can make me to go to another city and work 10 hours there too, along with the time it takes to get there, which will make my day start about 7am and end up being 9pm (optimistically) before I get back home again. And they seriously think it's okay? It's not! Use your common sense folks. If I say I am already at my limits and near the final breakdown, I REALLY AM. I'm already doing long day shifts here and work for my coworkers too. I don't want to go and work for the coworkers of another city as well! Got it? No, they didn't get it. So, I'm going. -_-
I'm so tired with so many of things. Probably also because I know what I want, but not how to get it. But the more I look at my situation, I realize that anything would be better than this. So, it was really near today on my way back home that I didn't send mail to the woman who was our hostess in Kyoto. I found her number from my laptop bag and remembered how nice she was. I then really wanted to ask her if she would need a pair of extra hands running that nice ryoga. I know many languages and I am educated to the business like hers. So, why not?
Lately I've seen people near me making huge choises in their life and taking big risks, but I myself feel like a crazy little squirrel running in circles, ending up getting nowhere in this pointless cycle.
Alrighty, enough rant for one day, as I am not as pissed off as I was yesterday, even if I may sound like it. I was happy to get to forget that stress for awhile and have fun with Nera. Man, we were wasted. We had many deep and random conversations, and now when I think of it, I must have sounded like a rampling drunkard, which I totally was. Gomen nasai. :D
And we came to conclusions such as that the image of Mao being on all fours, naked, is an image that doesn't leave your mind very easily. But hurrpurr, I don't even want to. :D
Also, Kenzo is hot. Especially with a gun. Especially with a long, floating jacket. Especially when he holds a metal pipe and gives you the grin and the look. Even then when he's all wrapped up in white bandages and looks like he and Aki had tried last night something new in bed. Yes, he's hot.
Can't wait to see their (Ayabie) film, having all those things in it. Here's a peek:
www.youtube.com/watch
www.youtube.com/watch
With that in mind, good night and sweet dreams. I'd really like to see a dream and remember it in the morning. Lately I've forgot all of them after I wake up, even if I remembered it was Jrock related.... Ah, my stressed up & messed up mind. u.u
Ah, it's been a shitty week. Well, not as bad as the one before that, but anyways. So, I'm glad I got to go and visit dear Nera to Turku and drink 3 liter of wine with her. 3 liter! o.o
You can guess what kind of condition we were in after that. xD
And the food she made was almost literally sexing my mouth. Made of awesome. She's made of awesome.
Too bad those highlights of my life don't last for long and I have to come back to my ordinary life, working and wondering what the heck to do. Lately those days at work have felt even more tough, because there's always some crisis going on and I feel like I'm doing the work of my coworkers too.
Also, they already make me work 10 hours a day and then take it for granted that they can make me to go to another city and work 10 hours there too, along with the time it takes to get there, which will make my day start about 7am and end up being 9pm (optimistically) before I get back home again. And they seriously think it's okay? It's not! Use your common sense folks. If I say I am already at my limits and near the final breakdown, I REALLY AM. I'm already doing long day shifts here and work for my coworkers too. I don't want to go and work for the coworkers of another city as well! Got it? No, they didn't get it. So, I'm going. -_-
I'm so tired with so many of things. Probably also because I know what I want, but not how to get it. But the more I look at my situation, I realize that anything would be better than this. So, it was really near today on my way back home that I didn't send mail to the woman who was our hostess in Kyoto. I found her number from my laptop bag and remembered how nice she was. I then really wanted to ask her if she would need a pair of extra hands running that nice ryoga. I know many languages and I am educated to the business like hers. So, why not?
Lately I've seen people near me making huge choises in their life and taking big risks, but I myself feel like a crazy little squirrel running in circles, ending up getting nowhere in this pointless cycle.
Alrighty, enough rant for one day, as I am not as pissed off as I was yesterday, even if I may sound like it. I was happy to get to forget that stress for awhile and have fun with Nera. Man, we were wasted. We had many deep and random conversations, and now when I think of it, I must have sounded like a rampling drunkard, which I totally was. Gomen nasai. :D
And we came to conclusions such as that the image of Mao being on all fours, naked, is an image that doesn't leave your mind very easily. But hurrpurr, I don't even want to. :D
Also, Kenzo is hot. Especially with a gun. Especially with a long, floating jacket. Especially when he holds a metal pipe and gives you the grin and the look. Even then when he's all wrapped up in white bandages and looks like he and Aki had tried last night something new in bed. Yes, he's hot.
Can't wait to see their (Ayabie) film, having all those things in it. Here's a peek:
www.youtube.com/watch
www.youtube.com/watch
With that in mind, good night and sweet dreams. I'd really like to see a dream and remember it in the morning. Lately I've forgot all of them after I wake up, even if I remembered it was Jrock related.... Ah, my stressed up & messed up mind. u.u