damnit damnit damnit
i compulsively check my e-mail once again. how could he know? damn, why can't i forget? i want to forget all the good times that i constantly remember. i'm so afraid that those good times will never happen again. i miss the taste. i miss the smell. hell, someone that i just met even knows what i'm talking about (someone he dated his senior year that i just met). they were together. of course. classic. that is the story of my life. it all goes back to the one thing that hurts me the most. i need to rip off angelina jolie and have the phrase "what feeds me also destroys me" tattooed somewhere. i should probably get it put on my forehead. tears want to stain my face, and scars definitely coat my heart. i have a fucking math test tomorrow, but all i want to do is curl up in a ball and be catatonic for days.
i close my eyes. i'll never let you go. astroline rocks my heart.
damn, i can't move on. the past will always be there. the night at valerie's house, the night at the bar("fly" by sonique), the night in the car...wow, i think i might be a little slutty. the best thing ever--JULIE CALLED THE CELL PHONE WHEN WE WERE ABOUT TO MAKE OUT. UM....I'M AT BOOKS-A-MILLION FOR MY MOM. why doesn't he know what he's missing out on? everytime we try to make it work out something goes wrong. i can't help but be mad that he joined the airforce. i can never be with him now. wow, i want to cry. i'm far too emotionally inept to cry. what's wrong with my "tongue"? these words keep slipping away. i can't describe how much i think you're worth every single bit of this pain.
if only he had a clue what he's missing out on. i thought it was over. guess i was wrong once again. we have never even been on a date. isn't that sad? well, there's always time to rectify the situation. riiiiiight. maybe if i wish upon a star it'll come true. maybe i should just step on jiminey(how the hell do you spell that?) cricket. please don't give up on me. there's too much good to stop now, and i really think you still know that. at least i hope so. STARLIGHT STARBRIGHT .....damn i hope it's not too late.
i close my eyes. i'll never let you go. astroline rocks my heart.
damn, i can't move on. the past will always be there. the night at valerie's house, the night at the bar("fly" by sonique), the night in the car...wow, i think i might be a little slutty. the best thing ever--JULIE CALLED THE CELL PHONE WHEN WE WERE ABOUT TO MAKE OUT. UM....I'M AT BOOKS-A-MILLION FOR MY MOM. why doesn't he know what he's missing out on? everytime we try to make it work out something goes wrong. i can't help but be mad that he joined the airforce. i can never be with him now. wow, i want to cry. i'm far too emotionally inept to cry. what's wrong with my "tongue"? these words keep slipping away. i can't describe how much i think you're worth every single bit of this pain.
if only he had a clue what he's missing out on. i thought it was over. guess i was wrong once again. we have never even been on a date. isn't that sad? well, there's always time to rectify the situation. riiiiiight. maybe if i wish upon a star it'll come true. maybe i should just step on jiminey(how the hell do you spell that?) cricket. please don't give up on me. there's too much good to stop now, and i really think you still know that. at least i hope so. STARLIGHT STARBRIGHT .....damn i hope it's not too late.