DAMNIT!
So, apparently I should just be straight. I don't like being with guys. It apparently keeps unmentioned straight guys from befriending me. Not to mention the fact that straight guys don't want a fag in their fraternity. Ya know, Mike and some of the other guys are so fucking amazing about it. They are some of the best friends I could ever ask for. I just don't understand why the people that will remain unmentioned hate this about me so much. They can't understand it's not something I asked for or even want. I don't hate the guys who apparently dislike me though. I honestly wish there were something I could do to get them to move past this. I just have no idea what that might be. I can't even kiss a guy without feeling like shit about it. So, I've decided to give up on guys. It's just not worth it. Too many people are getting hurt over it- namely the family. I just fucking give up. Still, I'm so blessed to have the friends I do and to have met the guys I've met. They mean the world to me, and I'd do anything for them. Gah....even during this shit, life is so fucking sweet.