lonely - just woke up - fuck spell check-fuck re-reading

[farfromyou]

i dont date.
(that doesn't help the lonely feeling i fall asleep with and wake up with)
i dont want to date.
(thats a lie)
who do i date.
(without meeting someone at a bar or online...)

i dont have anyone in mind. i dont really meet new people that i'd want to spend more time with. sure i have small talk with very beautiful girls on line at the store but...that goes no where. I think its because i really just dont care. ( That might be the answer to this all. )
Its not that i dont care about having a girlfriend/date its just i dont care to make any changes. I'll meet someone they will be great and wonderful for a few days and then BOOM!!! no more fun time. And i guess i dont care to reach that step. I dont care to reach that BOOM no more fun time step.
I want someone i can get along with. Someone who understands me. someone who will care for me. someone to share my bed with. someone with little hands that i can feel on my warm skin when i wake up.

i guess i'll just try and keep my mind off of it.
i mean...do i really need the company ?
yes.
oh god yes.