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i guess the only thing to do is to make it public. stephen and i are no longer in a relationship... after 2 years, we are done... i'm not quite sure how i'm going to deal.. thank god its the summer and we won't have to see too much of each other.. but i don't want that to stop us.. i want to be just as close to him.. just without the relationship.. and who knows.. we may get back together... you never know... i still feel like my heart won't heal.. but i know that as time goes on.. it will.. i still love him dearly.. he will always be my first love... and no one can take that away from me... unconditional love... thats what i feel for him... i think we just need time and space... i'm ready to move on in my life... away from school and home.. i talked to robyn tonite.. we talked about life.. and then talked about lissa.. i'll go into it later... i'm missing him right now... it just hit me.. that he wont' call me tonite.. or tomorrow... and thats the part that hurts... i'm alone. and i hate being alone.. i dont' know who i am when i'm alone...
on a side note- tonite is girls nite... ohhh how i love them.. me LO and holly are going to hook up to do whatever... (as of now i have no clue) anyways, shall prove to be fun..
hopefully T will call me tonite.. i love talking to him... he makes me smile when i really dont' want to...hmmm..anyways.. i hopeeveryone has a GRRREAT day... peace.
on a side note- tonite is girls nite... ohhh how i love them.. me LO and holly are going to hook up to do whatever... (as of now i have no clue) anyways, shall prove to be fun..
hopefully T will call me tonite.. i love talking to him... he makes me smile when i really dont' want to...hmmm..anyways.. i hopeeveryone has a GRRREAT day... peace.