winter break blues.
meh. winter break has been okay. Up to New Year's just about, I felt so over extended: finals ending, class staarting, working right before xmas, xmas itself, class in the mornings, readings, tired, hanging out with friends, drinking, staying up late, getting up early, etc etc. It's been tiring, and fun for the most part, but I guess this week I can feel like I can relax. Tomorrow I have to hang out at work to research people for my paper for class- the class is gender and consumption, and I'm writinga bout the orpah bookclub, yadda yadda, It sucks this week thoug, cos all my housemates are away- emily is in england, beth susie, and erica are at home and working. Gary was going to stay over one night, but he can't now because of his work scheudle. It's kind of frustrating, but more so I just feel lonely. The gary thing, frustrates me to no end I feel, cos it's winter break- i'm working like three times a week and taking a class in the mornings, but i have four days free for teh most part. It sucks, cos I know that when spring semester starts again, it's just going to be as busy to see him. I don't want to leave him, though, I know that, it's just very frustrating when you can't see the one you love. We talk all the time on the phone, but sometimes it isn't enough. I just need constant companionship, I'm like a puppy.
maybe, all this frustration is stemming from the fact that I'm doing nothing as of late. there's a job fair on wednesday, and I don't want to go because I don't even have a resume. I should do it, but I'm so lazy, and I just don't feel compelled to do it. I mean, ther' other job fairs and stuff. but I think it's other things to. I feel so trapped, I want to leave new brunswick and new jersey, even for a day, but I can't because I have no money or time to go anywhere. Last week I got to go to the city, and even that for the night was fun and much needed. Nisha is coming to visit, and that will be nice, because it'll be an excuse to get out of here. AHHH!i just want to scream and cry. I don't know. I just want to go to New Paltz NY and look at victorian mansions. I just want to go farawwayy.
maybe, all this frustration is stemming from the fact that I'm doing nothing as of late. there's a job fair on wednesday, and I don't want to go because I don't even have a resume. I should do it, but I'm so lazy, and I just don't feel compelled to do it. I mean, ther' other job fairs and stuff. but I think it's other things to. I feel so trapped, I want to leave new brunswick and new jersey, even for a day, but I can't because I have no money or time to go anywhere. Last week I got to go to the city, and even that for the night was fun and much needed. Nisha is coming to visit, and that will be nice, because it'll be an excuse to get out of here. AHHH!i just want to scream and cry. I don't know. I just want to go to New Paltz NY and look at victorian mansions. I just want to go farawwayy.