Out to sea...
Every year I wake up on this day and take a look at the calender, and it strikes me again. Why don't I ever see it coming from yesterday? Why is it always a surprise? :/ I don't get myself.
*sigh*
Today marks four years since Ed died. Four years already. It's almost hard to believe, but at the same time, I can feel the time between now and then like a tangible distance.
Never take advantage of the people you love. I still regret that we were, in essence, fighting when this happened. I had the chance to tell him I loved him one last time, when he called me the night before it happened. That was the only time I didn't tell him that I loved him before hanging up. My petty, selfish actions cost me a lifetime of guilt and pain. And though the ache has subsided over the years, I still feel like I have no closure.
Never go anywhere in a car without wearing a seatbelt, kids.
Here's to hoping nobody will ask why I'm so quiet at work today, as I really don't feel like breaking down there.
*sigh*
Today marks four years since Ed died. Four years already. It's almost hard to believe, but at the same time, I can feel the time between now and then like a tangible distance.
Never take advantage of the people you love. I still regret that we were, in essence, fighting when this happened. I had the chance to tell him I loved him one last time, when he called me the night before it happened. That was the only time I didn't tell him that I loved him before hanging up. My petty, selfish actions cost me a lifetime of guilt and pain. And though the ache has subsided over the years, I still feel like I have no closure.
Never go anywhere in a car without wearing a seatbelt, kids.
Here's to hoping nobody will ask why I'm so quiet at work today, as I really don't feel like breaking down there.