How the goddamn hell does this work?
I really don`t get it, one moment we are fooling around smiling happy tickling, just after we basically poured our hearts ou to each other then the next nothing. We hardly talk. FFS!!! she blew off a guy older than me, same age as me and she told me I make her feel real special, she even called me deary, something she`s done about twice sofar.
I really really don`t know what the hell is going on. i know she said she doesn`t whant anything in the beginning of the year but everyone i`ve asked said things seem to be going much better. For god`s sake we even kissed. And it was my first time. Mmmmmm...... memmories. First time propperly kissed. damn it was nice. Thank goodness it was with her and not someone i don`t love. She told me she didn`t believe it was the first time for me cos i did it damn well.
We have gone a little bit further though that`s between me and her. I guess the way i`m telling it just sounds like i`m getting nervous or cold feet or crap like that, and damn i hope it is just that. maybe she`s just still a bit shy. I dunno. THough time is all i can give now. I`ll have to wait and see. But some one shure as hell better dub me a flipping saint with all the patience i`m showing (patience is a virtue).
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! quite amusing, she herself said i`m innocent. Heheheh.
On a more stable note, Holidays starts this friday. crap holiday though, 10 days. :(. though then i`ll be able to chat online with Mirc in Writers ramblings room, YAY. poure my heart oout time. WITH MERLOT!!!!!!! oops. i promissed i wouldn`t get all that excited bout alcohol again. oh well.
I really really don`t know what the hell is going on. i know she said she doesn`t whant anything in the beginning of the year but everyone i`ve asked said things seem to be going much better. For god`s sake we even kissed. And it was my first time. Mmmmmm...... memmories. First time propperly kissed. damn it was nice. Thank goodness it was with her and not someone i don`t love. She told me she didn`t believe it was the first time for me cos i did it damn well.
We have gone a little bit further though that`s between me and her. I guess the way i`m telling it just sounds like i`m getting nervous or cold feet or crap like that, and damn i hope it is just that. maybe she`s just still a bit shy. I dunno. THough time is all i can give now. I`ll have to wait and see. But some one shure as hell better dub me a flipping saint with all the patience i`m showing (patience is a virtue).
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! quite amusing, she herself said i`m innocent. Heheheh.
On a more stable note, Holidays starts this friday. crap holiday though, 10 days. :(. though then i`ll be able to chat online with Mirc in Writers ramblings room, YAY. poure my heart oout time. WITH MERLOT!!!!!!! oops. i promissed i wouldn`t get all that excited bout alcohol again. oh well.