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the sudden stab of feelings which are all too familiar just makes me so sure that the monday is gonna be as beautiful as diarrhoea. feel so blah. just what IS the purpose of life again? i can't seem to comprehend. i still see no purpose. i'm in desperate need of a break away from all things familiar. i need to feel scared, excited, nervous, ecstatic, ALIVE. i need to break away from this torturous cycle, so mundane, so expected, so safe, so unsatisfying. would it not be great to just for once be able to fuck money, responsibilities, conscience and everything that anchors you from possibilities and the world?