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Ugh, lately ive been somewhat depressed. im so0o lonely here. i mean yeah i still have my zekerz and my bill. but bills stepdaddy (bill) is like seriously doing everything in his power so that bill is like never home....ugh i hate it.... i hate being here alone ....i mean im not ALONE, i have zeke...and cherrie is here...but bill isnt....i hate the fact that bill (stepdad) will like wake us up just to make bill get up and go out with him for like hours on end...doing the lawn at the church or something...its fucking rediculous(spelling?) errr i hate it so0o much... i jsut want to get our own place so0o badly..but no no no we cant...cuz we have no fucking money..
oh yeah and bill (stepdad) thinks im going to get a fucking job..hah yeah okay fuck that, im going to be staying HOME and taking care of MY SON! <3
Just thinking about getting a job freaks me out..im so0o much like my mommy, oh god how i miss her so0o much...i cant wait to come back to jersey and see my mommy and nephew Baby James <3333
ughhhhh i dont know what to do anymore.... ive been feeling weirdish for like a week ....or more..... my tummy is like ALWAYS hurtin....either im hungry yet full or im not hungry yet i need food..... i dont get it.... maybe its the montains around here fucking with me...? i dunno...
I miss my friends...well the few "friends" i had/have....
I just need to be strong....i can do this...no i cant..who am i kidding....im not strong...im weak...so0o very weak...or at least thats how i feel...im so0o lost. i have no one here to help me find my way...i wish my bill would come home, and tell his stepfucker to fuck off...hah but if he did that we'd be kicked out....errrr church ppl......
well yeah... bye
Till My Wrist Stops Bleeding
oh yeah and bill (stepdad) thinks im going to get a fucking job..hah yeah okay fuck that, im going to be staying HOME and taking care of MY SON! <3
Just thinking about getting a job freaks me out..im so0o much like my mommy, oh god how i miss her so0o much...i cant wait to come back to jersey and see my mommy and nephew Baby James <3333
ughhhhh i dont know what to do anymore.... ive been feeling weirdish for like a week ....or more..... my tummy is like ALWAYS hurtin....either im hungry yet full or im not hungry yet i need food..... i dont get it.... maybe its the montains around here fucking with me...? i dunno...
I miss my friends...well the few "friends" i had/have....
I just need to be strong....i can do this...no i cant..who am i kidding....im not strong...im weak...so0o very weak...or at least thats how i feel...im so0o lost. i have no one here to help me find my way...i wish my bill would come home, and tell his stepfucker to fuck off...hah but if he did that we'd be kicked out....errrr church ppl......
well yeah... bye
Till My Wrist Stops Bleeding