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[far_flung_tonic]

sometimes i just want to
(get married to you)
and escape the sheets of hospitals and stomachaches
i
woke myself up in my bathtub
after getting sick in the early morning
i must have passed out
i must have leaned back
there isnt anyone here
chastise me or kiss my head just
dont turn to anyone
(like the leaves turn to the sun)

so i wear your shirts to bed
and the extra fabric wraps around my throat
i wake too hot and suffocating in your scent
but the comfort of being weak and beneath you is something i dont dare shake so i
breathe through your mouth and hold my tongue
and wait
to wake
(without you)