(no subject)
when did i become so lenient with rules?
what made me think he would change for the better?
i find it interesting that nobody ever asks about
the yelling
or the bruises
and i HATE that his initial shyness makes the world think that he's so innocent and pure
that he's the one who's suffering in this relationship
that i must be the bad one
why did i start making exceptions for him?
who does he think he is to hurt me the way he does?
i find it interesting that nobody ever asked me
how i was or what happened
they all assumed i did something wrong
and i HATE that i went back to it all
maybe because nobody bothered to ask?
maybe because it seemed like he was enjoying himself with people who were always self righteous and cruel towards me?
maybe because i still cared about him?
do i still care about him?
i don't know.
i hurt.
what made me think he would change for the better?
i find it interesting that nobody ever asks about
the yelling
or the bruises
and i HATE that his initial shyness makes the world think that he's so innocent and pure
that he's the one who's suffering in this relationship
that i must be the bad one
why did i start making exceptions for him?
who does he think he is to hurt me the way he does?
i find it interesting that nobody ever asked me
how i was or what happened
they all assumed i did something wrong
and i HATE that i went back to it all
maybe because nobody bothered to ask?
maybe because it seemed like he was enjoying himself with people who were always self righteous and cruel towards me?
maybe because i still cared about him?
do i still care about him?
i don't know.
i hurt.