I can't get away...
Today has been one of the weirdest days. I'm having a hard time keeping it together, and all I want to do is hang out in Brattleboro. I think I'm having some serious homesickness...but at the same time, I feel like I'm being attacked with the past, which in turn makes me feel crazy/nostalgic/sad/worried, and I'm not sure if being back at home would make me feel any better. Dreams of ex-boyfriends, that I didn't even really LIKE or treat nicely while dating, turn me into a moron all day because I can't stop thinking of that person. Working on a present for a friend, which involves looking through old journals and pictures, which then turns me into a depressed fool. Check my email and find a cryptic message from the boy I dated before moving here and feel utterly confused and trapped in 2001.
I'm married. I love Steve with all my heart, but that doesn't make confronting past issues any easier. I wish I didn't feel so uncomfortable in my skin sometimes.
I'm married. I love Steve with all my heart, but that doesn't make confronting past issues any easier. I wish I didn't feel so uncomfortable in my skin sometimes.