silver coin
so today i was faced with an interesting statement: "kat you are immature". thats the first time anyone has told me that before and frankly it really hurt. vanessa said that to me while we were talking about how i was once called an "old soul". i had been thinking about maturity recently and i decided most people think its when you become serious, when you dont joke around anymore, or get excited about anything. i mean i guess ive always know this but vanessa really hit it home. she said she thought i wasnt mature because i was "hyper all the time". ive noticed with my friends who've gone to east and west coast schools that this seems to be the same process of thought. i was excited that rani was coming home and all she said to me was "relax". why cant adults be excited about anything? why must everything be serious to be considered "mature"? i think as a society we take ourselves too seriously. honestly i went through this phase in high school! i thought everything had to be taken seriously all the time, everything had to be pc and moral. yes all of those things are good and necessary but WHY MUST THE BE ALL THE TIME? when i lived in that world of "no's" in high school i was at my most unhappy. nothing was correct and nothing could be made fun of. i realized that once i got to college that i should stop restricting myself so much. that doesn't make me mature at all, just unhappy. obviously when we go out into the work place we need to be pc and take things seriously because we need to consider others feelings/obviously its wrong be racist or anything like that. i just think at some point we need to be able to laugh at all these things we take seriously otherwise they are going to run our lives. loosen up people! i feel like adulthood has just become a time for people to be unhappy. thats not the way i want to live my life! i act crazy because it makes others loosen up and makes them laugh. i want people to be happy and not take everything so seriously all the time. if you put yourself in a box then you put your life in a box. you stop yourself from having all kinds of experiences. anyway i think maturity is more than just being serious. i think its the way you treat yourself and others. i think the most immature thing people do is try to hurt one another and adults do that all the time. if you had self respect and self love you wouldn't need to retaliate through violence or by hurting someone else. i cant believe being happy and enthusiastic has become something "childish". that really shows us what we have become. i dont know about anyone else but when i get older i certainly want to be happy and get excited about my life. feelings shouldnt be immature, actions should be. words should be. treating people with respect/common decency is mature. complimenting and understanding one another is mature. trying to think outside the box and understand someone elses point of view even when it completely conflicts with your own is mature. anyway, i have to write a paper and its 3 am (i guess im still immaturely unorganized!) so adios!