Dang It!!!!
*rushing around gathering my stuff*
*stopping to look at the bed where she's sleeping*
*feeling my heart pounding in my chest*
I love my Curly more than anything. She and Jessica are my world. I would die for either of them in their stead. A love like that can be damned scary sometimes. The intensity of the feelings.
It wasn't that long ago that I was wild and crazy without a care in the world. Had no intentions of settling down....not with my career. I didn't have time for that. Then she came into my life.
*looking at our precious Jessica asleep beside her mother where I placed her this morning after feeding her*
Then that precious angel...our Princess...came into my life. Suddenly, I was not only a husband, but a father. WHOA! What a responsibility. When I held that precious little bundle of joy in my arms, I suddenly felt so inadequate to be her father. I immediately started thinking of all the things I wanted for her and for Kim and for our other children when it came time for them.
I know, I know....I'm getting way too phylosophical here, but, DANG IT....that's what I'm feeling this morning. It's how I've been feeling lately. And it's made me a stick in the mud sometimes. I don't only think of me anymore. I think of my wife and my daughter and how things I do will affect them. I watch my language around my baby girl. I cringe when I think of someone being rude or crude with her.
What's happened to me?
*looking at the clock*
Dang it I'm gonna be late and it's gonna be a long day as it is.
*going over and kissing them both goodbye for the day*
I love you baby....I love you Jessica Diane.
LB
*stopping to look at the bed where she's sleeping*
*feeling my heart pounding in my chest*
I love my Curly more than anything. She and Jessica are my world. I would die for either of them in their stead. A love like that can be damned scary sometimes. The intensity of the feelings.
It wasn't that long ago that I was wild and crazy without a care in the world. Had no intentions of settling down....not with my career. I didn't have time for that. Then she came into my life.
*looking at our precious Jessica asleep beside her mother where I placed her this morning after feeding her*
Then that precious angel...our Princess...came into my life. Suddenly, I was not only a husband, but a father. WHOA! What a responsibility. When I held that precious little bundle of joy in my arms, I suddenly felt so inadequate to be her father. I immediately started thinking of all the things I wanted for her and for Kim and for our other children when it came time for them.
I know, I know....I'm getting way too phylosophical here, but, DANG IT....that's what I'm feeling this morning. It's how I've been feeling lately. And it's made me a stick in the mud sometimes. I don't only think of me anymore. I think of my wife and my daughter and how things I do will affect them. I watch my language around my baby girl. I cringe when I think of someone being rude or crude with her.
What's happened to me?
*looking at the clock*
Dang it I'm gonna be late and it's gonna be a long day as it is.
*going over and kissing them both goodbye for the day*
I love you baby....I love you Jessica Diane.
LB