So you can be with her~
Title : So you can be with her~
Author : fantasydesire@solace
Pairing : Kris/OC, EXO-M cameo
Chapter: Oneshot
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I only own them in my own fantasy-like mind - meaning they are not mine really..
Inspired by BToB - Imagine
Summary : Kris no longer loved her like he did before..
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Kris hummed as he slipped into the house he shared with HaeWon, his girlfriend. He was ecstatic because he had just returned from spending time with another girl. A girl he believed he was starting to love. Her name was Alice. Kris knew that what he was doing was bad - he already had a girlfriend, but he couldn’t help being attracted and wanting to be with Alice though HaeWon had been with him for the past two years.
Kris checked his appearance in the mirror hung in the living room before going into the bedroom. He had to make sure Alice didn’t leave any traces of her on him. HaeWon might get mad. That’s right, HaeWon didn’t know of his affair.. and he planned on keeping it that way. He couldn’t let go of HaeWon. She was too precious to him.
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HaeWon sighed when she woke up. She saw that Kris was already awake. He came home late again. She got out of bed and prepared breakfast for him. She waited for him at the table and smiled when he came out of the bedroom looking fresh. Before she could say anything though, Kris leaned down, pecked her lips chastely before leaving the house.
“Sorry, baby.. I’m already late.. manager hyung is already here..” Kris called out to her and left without a backward glance.
HaeWon was hurt but she just suppressed her frustrations. This had been going on for almost three months - him coming home late and leaving early. It was as if he didn’t want to spend time with her. The thought made her lost her appetite.
HaeWon sighed before packing the food. The stray dogs can eat these, then.
HaeWon headed to work and there she heard the latest news - EXO had won an award. She didn’t bother to ask what award they had gotten, all that mattered to HaeWon was that her boyfriend and his members had gotten an award, which meant recognition. It was one of his dreams.
After work, HaeWon hurried to buy a cake and went to the SME building. She didn’t tell Kris she was going though. She wanted to surprise him.
HaeWon greeted the staffs warmly and cheerfully. They all knew who she was. HaeWon kept on smiling and she was ready to knock on the door when she overheard her name. She frowned and decided to lean on the wall next to the door. The whole floor was quiet so she could hear them talking almost clearly through the slightly opened door.
“If you don’t care for her anymore, hyung.. just leave her.” HaeWon’s eyes widened as she heard Chen’s voice.
“I can’t just leave HaeWon.. She’s been with me for two years.. and I can’t just let her go.” That’s Kris.
“You two-timing her now doesn’t make any difference, Kris.” XiuMin sighed tiredly. HaeWon sucked in a surprised breath.
“It does. At least she doesn’t know. What she doesn’t know won’t hurt her..” HaeWon’s heart stopped at Kris’s statement. He didn’t even deny the fact that he was cheating on her. “Plus, she’s still recovering from the accident.”
“You mean you’re only staying with her because you feel sorry for her?” She heard LuHan asked him incredulously. HaeWon heard no reply from Kris and that broke her heart. Kris, do you really only feel sorry for me?
“You’re crazy, Kris hyung. I respect you a lot.. but this is really bad.” Tao said exasperatedly. He didn’t really like HaeWon because she wasn’t that pretty, but that didn’t mean he hated her either. She was kind afterall.
“I know.. It’s just.. I can’t help it.. Alice is everything I ever wanted and more.. so..” Kris answered dejectedly.
“I think it’s best if we don’t say anything to her.. HaeWon is still recovering after all..” Lay finally put his two-cent in.
Little did they know, HaeWon heard everything. She came to surprise the boys because they had won an award and she was proud of them. However, she didn’t expect that she was the one who was going to be surprised.
HaeWon closed her eyes and covered her mouth to silence her sobs. She didn’t even know when the tears rolled down her cheeks. Deciding she couldn’t take it anymore, she left the cake she brought for EXO-M on the floor beside the door and left the building. She decided to just go home and think it through.
HaeWon was sitting on the bed, staring at nothing when her phone vibrated, signaling there was a message. She sighed tiredly and glanced at her phone screen. It was from Kris.
“I’m sorry, baby.. But practice is still going on. I’ll come home as soon as possible..”
Lies.. All lies.. HaeWon closed her eyes as her silent tears fell.
Her phone suddenly rang and she looked at the screen again. It was LuHan. It rang again, this time it was XiuMin. She just stared at the phone, unmoving. XiuMin and LuHan were the only two EXO members close to her. They were like her brothers. They didn’t care that she wasn’t beautiful like other girls. They didn’t care that she wasn’t as perfect as other girls. They only cared that she was nice and she loved Kris a lot.
LuHan called again. And again. And again. She sighed as she finally answered his call.
“Dongsaeng ah, where are you? Thanks for the cake! But why did you leave it on the floor?” LuHan cheery voice greeted her. However, she noticed how guilt and worry tinged his voice.
“Sorry..”
“Hey.. are you okay? You sound sick..”
HaeWon waited a beat. “Is Kris there?”
LuHan was quiet. HaeWon sensed his hesitation. She was right. Kris lied.
“Uh.. He’s..” LuHan stuttered.
“I know.”
LuHan stayed silent. Judging from her tone and choice of words, LuHan knew that HaeWon finally knew about what was going on. Before he could say anything, HaeWon spoke.
“Congratulations by the way..”
LuHan sighed. “HaeWon-ah.. How d-”
HaeWon cut him off. “I’m tired, oppa.. Mianhae..”
HaeWon ended the call and switched off her handphone. She took a calming breath and stared at the moon from the bed. Out of the corner of her eye, something was glinting on the bedside table. HaeWon turned and saw a ring. She stood up and picked the ring up. It wasn’t just any ring, it was Kris’s couple ring and engraved in it was her name. She looked at her own ring that bore his name and realization that Kris was no longer hers dawned on her. A painful memory cropped up in her mind.
“As long as we both wear these rings, we will always belong to each other..” Kris smiled as he entwined his fingers with her. They both grinned widely at their newly bought couple ring.
HaeWon knew then. She knew Kris’s heart was no longer hers. She finally felt it with every fiber of her being and it hurt her. It hurt her so badly that she collapsed on the floor, tears streaming down her face, lips parted wanting to scream but nothing came out. She placed a hand on her heart, trying to keep it together but with a choke, she realized her heart was too shattered to be picked up on her own. A sob escaped her lips, followed by a whimper and soon a scream as the pain was too much for her to bear.
Flashes of memories flooded her thoughts.
Her accident. Kris didn’t breathe a sigh of relief. It was a burdened sigh. She remembered now how empty his eyes looked although the doctor had just told him that she was well. He wasn’t happy that she survived. He had wished she had not.
Her birthday party. She remembered now. That girl. Her name was Alice. She remembered LuHan introduced her to the girl as Kris’s friend. She thought it was weird because she knew all Kris’s friends and Alice wasn’t one of them. However, since she trusted Kris, she just shrugged it off. She remembered LuHan’s discomfort when they were introduced. She remembered XiuMin’s nervous face. She remembered her smiling face that belied her smirking eyes.
Their two year anniversary celebration. She remembered how shocked she was when Alice was invited along. She remembered Chen’s sigh and Lay walking away when Alice arrived. Kris and HaeWon had always celebrated their anniversaries with EXO-M members only. The fact that Kris invited Alice along was weird but HaeWon still brushed it off. She remembered how Kris was talking and laughing with Alice instead of her - his girlfriend. She remembered how she dismissed the thought of him cheating on her even when she saw his hand resting comfortably on her waist.
Kris coming home late. She remembered how Kris would always snuggle with her before sleeping and never let go until both of them were awake. But lately, he had been coming home late, smelling slightly like a girl’s perfume and he always slept with his back on her. She remembered seeing a red mark on his shoulder and she was sure that it wasn’t hers. Kris had not touched her for quite some time.
HaeWon felt nauseous. She felt sick to the stomach. How could she have been so blind, so stupid? She dragged her tired feet into their bedroom and mindlessly changed her clothes. She left everything behind. It was for the best. She didn’t want a reminder. She couldn’t handle things that would remind her of him and the memories of them being together.
HaeWon walked aimlessly. Without her realizing it, she arrived at Kris’s favourite place. He always went there with his EXO-M members. She stopped when she saw Tao, Chen and Lay at the little café. They were eating her cake. She smiled a little. She couldn’t see XiuMin and LuHan though. Ah well, they must’ve come here to celebrate. They always did.. She shook her head and continued walking.
HaeWon didn’t know that the two men already saw her and they made their way out of the café. LuHan and XiuMin lagged behind as they didn’t want her to notice their presence. They knew she knew and they knew she was hurting, so they wanted to make sure she was fine.
HaeWon crossed the street and walked towards the park near the café. She ventured into the park, staying in the shadows the trees casted. Her footsteps were halted, however, when she heard Kris calling out Alice’s name. She turned her head and saw Kris motioning for Alice to come to him. they were standing under the stars - just like HaeWon and Kris used to. She watched how Alice sauntered towards Kris and she saw how Kris hugged the girl from behind.
“I only bring people who mean a lot to me here.. It’s my favourite place..” Kris said whilst smiling down at her, his eyes filled with love.
HaeWon cringed at the memory. She tore her gaze away when Kris leaned down to kiss Alice. Tears blinded her vision as she turned back and walked away hurriedly. She could only feel pain in her heart. She didn’t notice the loud honk of a lorry that was heading her way - fast. She didn’t see anything else but the picture of Kris kissing Alice. She didn’t hear anything else but his voice calling out Alice’s name.
LuHan and Xiumin who had seen her crossing the street yelled out her name. HaeWon saw the two males running towards her and yelling her to stop. She stopped, but three steps away from safety and only to turn and stare blankly at the bright headlights of the lorry.
A loud crash was heard and LuHan stared in horror as HaeWon flew several feet away from her original spot. Xiumin yelled her name once more just as her head hit the ground.
Kris who heard HaeWon’s name turned around and saw his members running towards the street. He felt his heart beating fast as he loosened his grip around Alice. He saw the lorry driver jumped out from his seat and slammed the door in panic before hurrying to where LuHan and XiuMin were.
Kris slowly walked away from the girl and took tentative steps towards the accident scene. He was afraid to see because he didn’t want his suspicion to come true. XiuMin and LuHan only knew one girl with the name HaeWon and it was his girlfriend. Judging from the panicked look on both of their faces, this girl named “HaeWon” they were currently hovering above surely wasn’t any stranger to them.
Kris broke into a run as fear filled his heart and stopped right next to LuHan. LuHan was openly crying now. XiuMin was on the phone, trying to call the ambulance. The lorry driver was also on the phone but Kris couldn’t care less about him. Kris stared down at the victim and his eyes met HaeWon’s face. The face that always had a bright smile for him was now covered in blood. Her eyes which always held mirth and love for him were currently glazed with pain and unfocused.
Kris dropped to the ground, chest heaving, barely breathing as he scanned her from top to bottom. She was covered in blood, especially her head. She looked weak, extremely weak. It broke his heart. LuHan who was cradling her head and holding one of her hands kept on muttering a prayer in Mandarin while crying. XiuMin was cursing loudly when his calls weren’t answered by the hospital workers.
“HaeWon.. HaeWon..” Kris kept on saying like a prayer. Her eyes drifted to him and he would have smiled if it wasn’t for her words.
“You’re free now..”
It was slightly above a whisper, but Kris heard it loud and clear. The disappointment in her voice was clear as day. His tears fell anew at her words. She knew. “I.. I..”
HaeWon only smiled a sad smile at his inability to form words. Lonely tears escaped her eyes. She was tired. She could hear XiuMin yelling out information about their whereabouts and LuHan’s prayers. Everything hurt. Everything was too loud. Her grip on LuHan tightened as pain engulfed her whole being. LuHan panicked.
“HaeWon.. hold on.”
HaeWon shook her head as her bruised lips trembled in pain. It was agonizing. HaeWon knew she wasn’t going to make it.
“The paramedics are on their way.. You’ve gotta hold on, HaeWon..” XiuMin said to her. HaeWon didn’t react.
HaeWon saw a pair of legs in her line of vision. She looked up and was greeted by the face of Alice, the girl who had taken her place in Kris’s heart. HaeWon dragged her eyes from her face to Kris’s. She stared at him long and hard. She tore her gaze away when she saw there was no love in his eyes for her anymore. All there was in his orbs she loved was guilt. Her broken heart hurt even more. She buried her face into LuHan’s chest, ignoring the sharp pain shooting through her whole being at the movement.
“I’m sorry..” Kris pleaded.
He doesn’t love me anymore.. HaeWon only buried her face even deeper into LuHan’s hold and Kris could feel his heart breaking at her rejection. It hurts.. God, please.. make it stop..
“I’m so sorry.. I’m so very sorry..” Kris apologized over and over, his voice sounded rough and heavy with guilt and regret. “Please, HaeWonnie.. I’m sorry.. I-”
Kris was cut short when LuHan suddenly gasped.
“HaeWon..?” LuHan pulled away slightly to take a glance at HaeWon. HaeWon wasn’t moving. Her eyes were tightly shut and there was no sound of breath. XiuMin wiped her tears and blood stained left cheek, voice almost pleading, “HaeWon… Dongsaeng-ah…”
LuHan quickly took hold of her wrist, searching for her pulse. His movements grew frantic when he couldn’t find any pulse. “No.. No.. No..” he pressed two fingers on her neck and then a hand on her chest. “Nononono… No.. HaeWon ah!! No!!” LuHan screamed as he shook her unmoving body.
Kris scrambled forward as he too tried to check for her pulse. He couldn’t find any. He didn’t want to believe that she was gone. Kris looked extremely lost as his fingers ghosted above her skin everywhere - too afraid to touch, too scared he would hurt her.
“No.” Kris breathed, but HaeWon was already gone. “No. HaeWonnie.. No..” He placed his forehead on hers, eyes closed as he whimpered. He dropped his head onto her shoulder and sobbed her name time and time again. Still, she didn’t answer him. “Please.. No!” Kris embraced her lifeless body now, crying and screaming in regret. “I’m sorry.. Forgive me.. I’m so sorry.. Please, HaeWonnie.. don’t go.. Please..”
Alice only stood at the side and watched. She watched as Tao, Chen, and Lay ran towards them and they too dropped beside LuHan and XiuMin when they registered about what had happened. She could only watch when the paramedics finally arrived and ran out of their van. She watched as they had to pull Kris away from HaeWon’s dead body to see if they could save her. She watched as the head paramedic shook his head after several failed attempts of reviving her. She watched as XiuMin helped LuHan to stand, both holding onto each other for support. And lastly, she could only watch Kris, the romantic man she liked, crying brokenly. She didn’t even move an inch when his members surrounded him and pulled him into a tight group hug, trying to console each other. She could only watch as Kris screamed in pain over the loss of his loved one. She could only watch.